The Changes A Weekend Can Bring
Ok, so last week...let me see....yes, I will admit, I was seriously considering dropping all my defenses and getting into some very very bad shit...you don't need to know what, just it would have been very bad, and very un-straight-edge-like. nothing really mattered to me except my friends...they were the only things on earth keeping me strong. school was really starting to piss me off for many reasons, and i just got fed up with all the bullshit of responsibility.
Friday...geez, what to say...uhh, it was a really really awesome day...having khrys and jeff and bri and me together was an awesome reunion...and hanging out with Christina and TOR was very fun. And the ride to get pizza with Jeff was fun...and then after everyone got home, stuff was getting better...me and bri were making plans to play 24, go for walks, etc...that was great....and then we all know the rest of that night
Saturday...quite possibly the best and worst day in a while. I got to know TOR a lot better, and she is amazing, but of course all happiness comes with a price, and I really ended up hurting my best friend. I am forever sorry to her, and I hope to work some stuff out with her ASAP. I cannot help the way I feel about people, as she, I, and others very well know. But I am happy and I am sorry at the same time
Sunday...more of the Saturday-ness...a very good day in all, though still hung up on the negatives, of course knowing me...
Monday...WOW for many reasons...
the bottom line: I am happier than I have been in a long time, but it has come with a price. All I know is the stuff we did on Friday does not have to suddenly stop just because one friendship was made stronger, and a couple were made weaker. If all are willing, we can rebuild what we had. There's no reason Summer 2006 cannot be like Friday repeated over and over again to give us Seniors a good sendoff into the real world and give Bri a good sendoff into the army. My point is clear, nobody wants to be hurt by this, and they dont have to be. Just talk it out and things WILL get better.
the changes a weekend can make..
Friday...geez, what to say...uhh, it was a really really awesome day...having khrys and jeff and bri and me together was an awesome reunion...and hanging out with Christina and TOR was very fun. And the ride to get pizza with Jeff was fun...and then after everyone got home, stuff was getting better...me and bri were making plans to play 24, go for walks, etc...that was great....and then we all know the rest of that night
Saturday...quite possibly the best and worst day in a while. I got to know TOR a lot better, and she is amazing, but of course all happiness comes with a price, and I really ended up hurting my best friend. I am forever sorry to her, and I hope to work some stuff out with her ASAP. I cannot help the way I feel about people, as she, I, and others very well know. But I am happy and I am sorry at the same time
Sunday...more of the Saturday-ness...a very good day in all, though still hung up on the negatives, of course knowing me...
Monday...WOW for many reasons...
the bottom line: I am happier than I have been in a long time, but it has come with a price. All I know is the stuff we did on Friday does not have to suddenly stop just because one friendship was made stronger, and a couple were made weaker. If all are willing, we can rebuild what we had. There's no reason Summer 2006 cannot be like Friday repeated over and over again to give us Seniors a good sendoff into the real world and give Bri a good sendoff into the army. My point is clear, nobody wants to be hurt by this, and they dont have to be. Just talk it out and things WILL get better.
the changes a weekend can make..