When you'd cry i'd wipe away all of your tears..
Last night- Me and jennifer went to sonny's. We were playing a race car game and jennifer won most of them cause i picked out crappy car's, lol. Then frank and Christian showed up. And then matt. Me and matt got in a 5min fight it was cute. Well anyways we were talking about things in sonny's cloest. And frank and christian were being assholes and wouldnt give us any time to talk. Me and jen left at like 7, and she went home to eat and came back over my house and we had our sleepover.
[[[Something i love about matt, and it's his eyes. Matt's eye's. They are so pretty i could stare into them forever. I love eye's and lips. Guys should have one or the other nice lips or nice eye's. But not that they must have beauiful eye's or lips its just a plus. I love long hair as well i like playing with guy's hair a lot. Idk it's cute]]]
---I was talking to Gina for awhile, and she is changing alittle [not in a bad way] i kno me and gina do get in stupid fight's a lot but i do love her, she is my best friend i look after her and crissy as much as i can. I wouldnt want anything bad to happend to either of them. As well as 4 all the other girl's.---
(This song, from Ecanescence's makes me sooo sad. But i cant turn it off i love it.)
Today, i was thinking, life is so precious and so fragile.
And people's emotions can get mixed up and lost within themself's so easly. Somtimes i wonder who i really am. I do believe, that mostly everything you do or, a event that accrues in your life, happens for a reason. As if our life is kinda planned out in a sense but, not to a extent where u cant control what happend's. Everything bad that happends their is always a lesson of good to be learned out of it. Although i do think most people dont take the chance to look beyound things that may happend, and idk maybe i look into thing's very deeply. I feel like when i really get to know a person at time's i know them better than i know myself, then they know theirself it's kinda a scarry thought. And i always do sense somtimes when somthing very bad is gonna happend in my life, and it never failed yet. It's really strange. I am starting to try and not care about little thing's that i do care about that my family/friend's do. But its kinda uncontrolling at time's. If i could to change the way i am would i? And maybe be more layed back. I honestly dont know what i'd say about that cause being layed back and "not caring" can just be plain out stupid some fucking times. I dont know what im really getting at. These are just random thoughts that pass through my brian. I find it really werid how no matter what i do to matt and no matter what he does to me we come back to one another. If i could let him go would i? I doubt it. Too many good time's too many memoires. I'm hoping ill be alright i'm hoping i wont fall back, But knowing myself, one kiss would kill it all. And it sure did. Im kinda tired of wanting a perfect relationship. There is no such thing. Out of all my guy friend's. Matt was the only one i feel 100% comfortable with him. And for my girl friend's its hard to choise, and i rather not choose. There is a lot of thing's i cant figure out about this world. But maybe that's how it is spossed to be. It wouldnt be any fun if we new the answer's to everything now would it? I dont think so. Well im getting a head ache, and my fucking back hurt's. I think im going in the shower in a few mins. Well bye?
<3Darlene
[[[Something i love about matt, and it's his eyes. Matt's eye's. They are so pretty i could stare into them forever. I love eye's and lips. Guys should have one or the other nice lips or nice eye's. But not that they must have beauiful eye's or lips its just a plus. I love long hair as well i like playing with guy's hair a lot. Idk it's cute]]]
---I was talking to Gina for awhile, and she is changing alittle [not in a bad way] i kno me and gina do get in stupid fight's a lot but i do love her, she is my best friend i look after her and crissy as much as i can. I wouldnt want anything bad to happend to either of them. As well as 4 all the other girl's.---
(This song, from Ecanescence's makes me sooo sad. But i cant turn it off i love it.)
Today, i was thinking, life is so precious and so fragile.
And people's emotions can get mixed up and lost within themself's so easly. Somtimes i wonder who i really am. I do believe, that mostly everything you do or, a event that accrues in your life, happens for a reason. As if our life is kinda planned out in a sense but, not to a extent where u cant control what happend's. Everything bad that happends their is always a lesson of good to be learned out of it. Although i do think most people dont take the chance to look beyound things that may happend, and idk maybe i look into thing's very deeply. I feel like when i really get to know a person at time's i know them better than i know myself, then they know theirself it's kinda a scarry thought. And i always do sense somtimes when somthing very bad is gonna happend in my life, and it never failed yet. It's really strange. I am starting to try and not care about little thing's that i do care about that my family/friend's do. But its kinda uncontrolling at time's. If i could to change the way i am would i? And maybe be more layed back. I honestly dont know what i'd say about that cause being layed back and "not caring" can just be plain out stupid some fucking times. I dont know what im really getting at. These are just random thoughts that pass through my brian. I find it really werid how no matter what i do to matt and no matter what he does to me we come back to one another. If i could let him go would i? I doubt it. Too many good time's too many memoires. I'm hoping ill be alright i'm hoping i wont fall back, But knowing myself, one kiss would kill it all. And it sure did. Im kinda tired of wanting a perfect relationship. There is no such thing. Out of all my guy friend's. Matt was the only one i feel 100% comfortable with him. And for my girl friend's its hard to choise, and i rather not choose. There is a lot of thing's i cant figure out about this world. But maybe that's how it is spossed to be. It wouldnt be any fun if we new the answer's to everything now would it? I dont think so. Well im getting a head ache, and my fucking back hurt's. I think im going in the shower in a few mins. Well bye?
<3Darlene