Players only love you when they're playing.
Two nites ago i went to Mat's house at 7ish. And we walked to parkway for a few mins and then he kicked everyone out of his living room and we sat down and watched Lord of the rings. The second one. I had the best time with him. We talked about thing's, did the usual, and just layed down together spooning watching it. ::smiles:: That was awesome. I left at 11. Then i had school. Then the next day all day i hung out with jenna and jennifer and we had a lot of fun. I sat on jenna's drum set for so long and she taught me the notes so i started playing all this shit in her book for so long. And it was a pretty awesome nite. We also had a sleep over! The next day [Last nite] it was Cori's going away party:[:[ She's moving to nc. Her, me, and jenna had soooo many good laughs at lunch. Everday i was doing something that made them piss their pants. And me and my crazy mood swings and not being able to pay attention always had them on the floor dying of laughter. I kept telling Cori i was going to miss her but she didn't think i meant it. And i really do/did. Anyways last nite Sonnny, Frank, Allie, Liz<3, Chelsea<3, Julia<3 were there!!! And partick h., Jon m., Ross and ryan parkmen. And then all these like emo boys from lauren and katlyns school were there.I made friend's with mostly all of them and my friend's got along well her her friends. I had a really good time but, i really regreat not bringing mat w/me:[:[ He'd beat up all thoes boys for me. Lol. Frank and lauren hooked up he should stop going from girl to girl it makes me angry. I pee'd in front of Julia.. idk why i did that haha. I'm so happy w/things right now but then in my dreams i have such sad and depressing dreams it just doesnt make any sence. Thing's from my past/things that scares me/things that i think will happen to me/things that are happening to me but i dont care in real life but when im dreaming it means the world to me. It's hard to explain what i mean. But i'll never really understand em'. I really want to do something crazy! I'm getting bored with this town their just so much to do and ive done a lot of it. I want to explore, i want to go places i haven't gone before. And meet new people and make lots of friends. I'm such a weird girl.
That's for sure but, i have my thoughts and thing's that i'll always want to do. I feel like i'm just becomming a teenager. I dont know why i'm finding myself everyday and who i am and whats good for me and to have pride for myself. Can't explain it one bit what i truely want. No, no it has nothing to do with mat or anything just like to do with myself. Mat fills a huge place in my heart. I want my old friends back GOD DAMNIT. I'm leaving now i just have a million things flying through my head rite now.
<33Mat
That's for sure but, i have my thoughts and thing's that i'll always want to do. I feel like i'm just becomming a teenager. I dont know why i'm finding myself everyday and who i am and whats good for me and to have pride for myself. Can't explain it one bit what i truely want. No, no it has nothing to do with mat or anything just like to do with myself. Mat fills a huge place in my heart. I want my old friends back GOD DAMNIT. I'm leaving now i just have a million things flying through my head rite now.
<33Mat