i'd never thought i would say this...
....but i wish i could go back to high school.
I just dropped my freshman composition II class because i realized no matter how hard i try i'm not going to be amitted in UT by CAP so i figured not to lower my GPA by taking the bitch from hell so i dropped it. i know sounds babyish. but i feel like a baby. No matter how much i want to feel like i'm not, i feel like i am, walking around on UTSA i feel like i'm so young and feel like all the people around me are so much wiser. i got excited today because free food, mardi gras beads, and free stuff in the UC. I didn't see anyone else get that excited (well not about the last two).
I've been at UTSA for a semester and the truth is i haven't made any friends there, and with all the friends i "lost" after i graduated i feel lonely. I seem to get so shy, and barely talk in class, before class or after class to anyone. mainly because i feel like a baby, i feel like i'm going to sound like an idiot when i talk. I know i'm not a full blown moron, but i don't feel like i'm at the same level as my peers when it comes to intellegence. Plus i'm used to making friends easily because we would see each other all the time, now not so. I need to find the socialable person in me, but it's not working.
I'm going to need to find a second job, seriously. The other day i backed straight into my van, and now we think the radiator's cracked. That costs a lot to fix, and i have $51 in my bank account. i got the promotion at Six Flags, but still $8/hour and i'm not going to be able to take over as many people's shifts, because we're not doing replacement slips this year. but i need to fix the van. have money to buy the honda (yes finally), move out with all the expenses that come with that. i want a room mate, but i don't know who.
I keep crying for no reason and i don't know why.
I'm really stressed, and i don't know why.
Well i'm going to see if i can find a job.
I just dropped my freshman composition II class because i realized no matter how hard i try i'm not going to be amitted in UT by CAP so i figured not to lower my GPA by taking the bitch from hell so i dropped it. i know sounds babyish. but i feel like a baby. No matter how much i want to feel like i'm not, i feel like i am, walking around on UTSA i feel like i'm so young and feel like all the people around me are so much wiser. i got excited today because free food, mardi gras beads, and free stuff in the UC. I didn't see anyone else get that excited (well not about the last two).
I've been at UTSA for a semester and the truth is i haven't made any friends there, and with all the friends i "lost" after i graduated i feel lonely. I seem to get so shy, and barely talk in class, before class or after class to anyone. mainly because i feel like a baby, i feel like i'm going to sound like an idiot when i talk. I know i'm not a full blown moron, but i don't feel like i'm at the same level as my peers when it comes to intellegence. Plus i'm used to making friends easily because we would see each other all the time, now not so. I need to find the socialable person in me, but it's not working.
I'm going to need to find a second job, seriously. The other day i backed straight into my van, and now we think the radiator's cracked. That costs a lot to fix, and i have $51 in my bank account. i got the promotion at Six Flags, but still $8/hour and i'm not going to be able to take over as many people's shifts, because we're not doing replacement slips this year. but i need to fix the van. have money to buy the honda (yes finally), move out with all the expenses that come with that. i want a room mate, but i don't know who.
I keep crying for no reason and i don't know why.
I'm really stressed, and i don't know why.
Well i'm going to see if i can find a job.