For Jess.

[alienesse]

Sometimes the sobbings is loud and echoes my chest cavity
Other times the sobs are silent and I just shake.
Every moment we're apart
Is another moment I don't want to be awake.

I finally found you
In this life
Wandering decades
Without my wife.

When together,
My being is whole.
Without you
Is to live without a soul.

A precious jewel of a deep blue
I am still lost in your eyes.
I have not seen them in too long.
But that is no surprise.

I treated you so poorly
Up and down was my mood.
No matter how sweet you were,
I was constantly rude.

Upon the third time I asked you to leave my bed,
You packed up your things and drove away.
I drove you away.
Now I am full of regret and constantly I pray...

I pray to God you will see that I am worth all your love
I pray to God you will want to give me another go.
I beg of you to take me back.
Not demanding to know.

You asked for time and space.
It's been a horrible ride
I've been so lifeless
Without you by my side.

I think I may get to see you tomorrow.
I can't stop hoping we will work things out.
Baby, I will never ever ever do that to you again.
I'll NEVER shout.