sundaymorningcomindownnn ;;
Today is good, all in all. Hubs is still asleep, i just got done playing with my cat babies. Currently listening to "30 Minut- ZX Spectrum Mix" by Тату, ft ay riders... Really good. Its like 8 Bit, but with the amazing tATu. 😘
In other news, i still can barely eat anything without vomiting. No, im not pregnant with a babybabe, in fact im just sick because my stomach is a sadistic evil King Lich of evil evilness. Erggh;; so frustrated with it.
My best friend/broski is in the hospital... Hes got heart issues i think. Last heard from him early in the morning, like 1 AM. he couldnt move his left side for FOUR DAYS. And FINALLY someone brought him to the hospital... If IHad known, you can bet your ass he'd be in the hosp within a half hour of it happening. Its fucking ridiculous that nobody looks after him. Its like, wtf? Seriously?
In other friend news: my friend, Mama J, and I are kinda fighting i guess. I lost my temper. I dont like how I handled it at alllll.I would apologize, but i was mad b.c. she kinda treats me like an idiot at times tbh. I mean, i dunno if she intends to treat me like that, but she does. She acts like im some imbecile.... A lot. And you know what? It reaaaaally hurts me. So many people treat me like that b.c. im what they call, "eccentric"... Well, they call me that sometimes, other times "weird" or "crazy".... Which would be alright if i was trying to act a fool (a la Zoe Deschanel or some shit) but im not.I wanna be treated like everyone else, even if im not like them.
The aspergers in me blinds me from seeing that i an different, but at least im trying to be like other people.
I cant tone down my alleged weirdness, since i dont know whats different about me. But i can try to act like other people, i guess. I mirror a bit, trying to mimic others to get by. Its like a fucking acting gig. And though i wish it wasnt necessary, i have to so that people work with me.
Like, the workers at my bank do not like me at all. This one banker actually hates me. She made me miss my bus by taking her jolly ole time even though i TOLDHER that i was gonna miss my bus.
Anyway, she acted like i was a burden and huffed and puffed while helping me withdraw money (aka her job.)
I had to walk down a dark road to a friends house, where i could finally call my hubs and let him know i wasnt dead, for crissakes. I eventually got a ride home (THANK GOD!!!! Oh, and the driver, too)... But it sucks that i had to do it anyway. It was a nightmare. I mean, when i was walking down this PITCH BLACK ROAD that goes through a SWAMP, this teen boy kept following me. Fucking scared me half to death. When he finally called out "hey!" To get my attention, i screamed in fear. Thank god he didnt want to rape and kill me and chop me into ittybitty pieces to feed to the swampie fishies... The fucking kid just wanted to sell me acid.
Weird times, man.
Anyway, im done ranting for no reason... Peeeeeeeeaaaaceeee OUT!!!!!
-ALNBBYGRL-
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