we are what we're supposed to be, illusions of your fantasy
Well crapadoodle it's been a long time since I've been here. And by been here I literally mean that: no posting, no commenting, no reading. Alas my life seems to be indefinitely clogged up with everything that I somehow don't find spare time any more to whittle away the hours on MSN or Livejournal or even facebook. I have 29 unread emails, facebooks to reply to and a gazillion different things to talk about here. So I apologise if this gets long.
Part of the reason I haven't posted in ages is of course to do with the ever present boyfriend. As I said in my last post he sought refuge from his roommates... which hasn't really gone away until today where he actually went back to Huddersfield. Maybe that's why I actually have time to post. But we've seemed to reach a pretty serious level, let's put it that way. And things are still pretty wonderful.
The other big part of the reason I haven't posted in ages is of course to do with the ever present big pile of work. But this is more of a bigger issue than it originally seems. Somewhere during last week which was the big pile of work mountaineering week I got a little stressed. To say the least. But its lead me to a decision. I don't want to carry on with my course.
People may remember that I was similar at some point last year. I hated my course but pledged to stick it out and try my best. Then I failed my first year. Cut to second year, similar pledge, and between me getting poor marks back on coursework, me actually hating most of the work, and me thinking the third year would just be a mistake, and of course that being before I actually pass my second year, which I'll be honest is unlikely to happen.
But alas I reach a few snags. Firstly is the most obvious: I kind of need something to do. I've come up with a few ideas but I'm not sure if any of them will work. Second snag is Matt. I of course want to see him. Third snag is Pride. If I'm not at Uni I can't be President.
The third is just a case of accepting it. If I want to leave I have to make sacrifices. But the second and first are a little more complicated but tie in together. I want to stay in Coventry for two reasons: because I know and like it here, and have little for me in Telford really, and of course sticking around for my friend's, and Matt's sake. But I'm really not sure what to do both career wise, housing wise and finance wise. It's all a little bit of a pickle and I'm not sure how to unstick it in my head. All discussions so far have become a little stressy and it hurts my poor ickle brain. So any advice would be nice really.
But that's the current update of my life. A little ARGHAGGHAHA but generally quite good. I'm in an entertainment peak with Lost, Torchwood and also a new found liking of That Mitchell and Webb look as well as a rumour of Doctor Who being as early as the 5th of April, me illegally downloading sims expansion packs (which are awesome). Planning on going to London with Matt early next term. Generally fun. Hurrah!
Now... I'll post more often I promise. See ya!
Part of the reason I haven't posted in ages is of course to do with the ever present boyfriend. As I said in my last post he sought refuge from his roommates... which hasn't really gone away until today where he actually went back to Huddersfield. Maybe that's why I actually have time to post. But we've seemed to reach a pretty serious level, let's put it that way. And things are still pretty wonderful.
The other big part of the reason I haven't posted in ages is of course to do with the ever present big pile of work. But this is more of a bigger issue than it originally seems. Somewhere during last week which was the big pile of work mountaineering week I got a little stressed. To say the least. But its lead me to a decision. I don't want to carry on with my course.
People may remember that I was similar at some point last year. I hated my course but pledged to stick it out and try my best. Then I failed my first year. Cut to second year, similar pledge, and between me getting poor marks back on coursework, me actually hating most of the work, and me thinking the third year would just be a mistake, and of course that being before I actually pass my second year, which I'll be honest is unlikely to happen.
But alas I reach a few snags. Firstly is the most obvious: I kind of need something to do. I've come up with a few ideas but I'm not sure if any of them will work. Second snag is Matt. I of course want to see him. Third snag is Pride. If I'm not at Uni I can't be President.
The third is just a case of accepting it. If I want to leave I have to make sacrifices. But the second and first are a little more complicated but tie in together. I want to stay in Coventry for two reasons: because I know and like it here, and have little for me in Telford really, and of course sticking around for my friend's, and Matt's sake. But I'm really not sure what to do both career wise, housing wise and finance wise. It's all a little bit of a pickle and I'm not sure how to unstick it in my head. All discussions so far have become a little stressy and it hurts my poor ickle brain. So any advice would be nice really.
But that's the current update of my life. A little ARGHAGGHAHA but generally quite good. I'm in an entertainment peak with Lost, Torchwood and also a new found liking of That Mitchell and Webb look as well as a rumour of Doctor Who being as early as the 5th of April, me illegally downloading sims expansion packs (which are awesome). Planning on going to London with Matt early next term. Generally fun. Hurrah!
Now... I'll post more often I promise. See ya!