Warning: Depressing material but potentially inspiring...?
Let me just start by saying adam's parents were so incredibly touched by what we did (with raising the money), they broke down and cried and hugged us lots. It was just so great to see them so happy. Thanks to everyone once again.
Wow...what a taxing weekend....every time we go out to Clarenville it just gets harder and harder. The difference between his mom this week and two weeks ago is frightning. Tomorrow is a big day. It's the day she decides whether she wants to continue with chemo or not...it's not helping her, hurting her in fact. But she feels like not taking it is like giving up. The doctor rationalized it with this analogy: it's like you're drowning, and all you can do is grasp at reeds. But basically the outcome is inevitable. Harsh i know but so very true....
So, Adam and I have made a very important decision. We are going to get married in the chapel in the clarenville hospital in the next couple of weeks, while she can still move around, even if just in a wheel chair. The joy in her eyes to know she would be there, get to give adam away...i can't even describe it. No reception or guests, just my family and his and a lot of photo-taking. We're still going to plan a big family wedding in the next year like the plan has been all along. The only difference is it will be more like a vow renewal since we'll already be legally married. We bought our wedding bands tonight. It was exciting and sad all at the same time. I don't know if i ever cried so hard as i did tonight in Dave munro's bathroom. But that's a whole other story. The next couple of weeks are going to be...trying. I apologize in advance if i don't get all my Merry Christmas's out or don't talk to anyone for awhile. Please know it's not on purpose.
Thanks to everyone for everything, and have an excellent holiday season
Love Alicia
Wow...what a taxing weekend....every time we go out to Clarenville it just gets harder and harder. The difference between his mom this week and two weeks ago is frightning. Tomorrow is a big day. It's the day she decides whether she wants to continue with chemo or not...it's not helping her, hurting her in fact. But she feels like not taking it is like giving up. The doctor rationalized it with this analogy: it's like you're drowning, and all you can do is grasp at reeds. But basically the outcome is inevitable. Harsh i know but so very true....
So, Adam and I have made a very important decision. We are going to get married in the chapel in the clarenville hospital in the next couple of weeks, while she can still move around, even if just in a wheel chair. The joy in her eyes to know she would be there, get to give adam away...i can't even describe it. No reception or guests, just my family and his and a lot of photo-taking. We're still going to plan a big family wedding in the next year like the plan has been all along. The only difference is it will be more like a vow renewal since we'll already be legally married. We bought our wedding bands tonight. It was exciting and sad all at the same time. I don't know if i ever cried so hard as i did tonight in Dave munro's bathroom. But that's a whole other story. The next couple of weeks are going to be...trying. I apologize in advance if i don't get all my Merry Christmas's out or don't talk to anyone for awhile. Please know it's not on purpose.
Thanks to everyone for everything, and have an excellent holiday season
Love Alicia