ugh!!! im over it!!!
ok so thats it... im done with men for a while. im so over giving people chance after chance and gettin screwed in the end. im just done... so i have kinda developed a bit of a crush on someone...im not naming names... but yeah i dunno my eyes jus kinda opened to this person... but im def over men!!! i think its time for me to move on.. guys are great but there really only good for one thing and thats sex... anything other than that. well they really just dont know what to do with themselves. they end up hurting someone who could have been very good for them. and whos to say that person wasnt the person they were meant to spend the rest of there life with...well yeah cause now there screwed cause that person that they just hurt will never even take them back...and by the way this time i really mean that...I FUCKING MEAN IT!!! dont you dare try to contact me...cause as far as im concerned your dead... you no longer exist.. your number is gone from my cell phone...if i could block it i would. because you always seem to pop up right back into my life right when i begin to get over you...and you feed me all these lines and i fall for them and i fall hard... i told you i loved you for gods sakes...and you said it back... and i thought you meant it... apparently i was wrong. HEAR ME WHEN I SAY THIS... YOU ARE NOTHING TO ME!!! i gave you 3 chances which is more then you would have gotten from anyone else and what the fuck did you do.... you fucked it up again... i actually pity you...because you will never know what it feels like to be truly loved...you will never have someone to go home to, to fall asleep next to...i feel bad for you i really do... because i honestly think that you think your the victim in all of this... to be honest im not the victim and neither are you... your actually the smart one in all of this... because you took advantage of me and i fell for it...well you know what... no more my friend...it is soo past over.... you mean shit to me...dirt means more to me that you do... im done with you.... FUCK OFF!!!
anyways sorry bout that...i really just needed to get that off my cheast and i feel better! but yeah i have developed a bit of a crush...i dunno if it will turn into anything... but only time will tell! i went and got my nails done today...first time in 2 years... it feels nice even though i mush admitt its a lil wierd typing... haha..but yeah i went and got em done with Jen and Ashley..and it was a nice time..we went to chilis afterwards and grabed some lunch/dinner...ten back to my house where we waited for it to be time for me and Jen to go to work. we went in for 3 hours and made nothing. it was really pointless...all because they thought they were going to be busy...what a waste of a perfectly good night. oh well i have tomorrow off which is very very nice... ill proly sleep tilll noon then get up and i really really really need to clean my room and clean out my car... its soo gross.... so im really gonna try to accomplish something tomorrow... so yeah thats all.....jus needed to get some things off my chest...but im done... so sleep sounds good... i guess ill try to update again later.... by the way i really miss Chris and Paolo....i wanna see em.... i should write them a letter... maybe ill do that toorrow too..... later
anyways sorry bout that...i really just needed to get that off my cheast and i feel better! but yeah i have developed a bit of a crush...i dunno if it will turn into anything... but only time will tell! i went and got my nails done today...first time in 2 years... it feels nice even though i mush admitt its a lil wierd typing... haha..but yeah i went and got em done with Jen and Ashley..and it was a nice time..we went to chilis afterwards and grabed some lunch/dinner...ten back to my house where we waited for it to be time for me and Jen to go to work. we went in for 3 hours and made nothing. it was really pointless...all because they thought they were going to be busy...what a waste of a perfectly good night. oh well i have tomorrow off which is very very nice... ill proly sleep tilll noon then get up and i really really really need to clean my room and clean out my car... its soo gross.... so im really gonna try to accomplish something tomorrow... so yeah thats all.....jus needed to get some things off my chest...but im done... so sleep sounds good... i guess ill try to update again later.... by the way i really miss Chris and Paolo....i wanna see em.... i should write them a letter... maybe ill do that toorrow too..... later