Eenie meenie
The following thought are from the song: Justin Bieber feat. Sean Kingston
Eenie Meenie.
I am indecisive
I seriously can’t decide, especially when it comes to what I want in my life, my love life, my future, my relationships with people.
I will always being looking from left to right, up and down, backwards and forwards.
When I look into people’s eyes I always try to figure what their problem is, who hurt them, what has hurt them, why?
I feel that everyone has a pain, but I am such a curious person, I want to know what the pain is, but for some reason I don’t apply what I already know. I would never tell anyone my pain so why should I expect to have anyone tell me their pain.
I have left people; I believe it’s in my genetics genes.
My great-grandmother left her husband and her children. Abandoned them
My other great-grandfather left his wife and children, so that he could all the fun he wanted, that’s why my mother refuses for me to be with Asians.
I always felt like I am genetically programmed to be a cheater, a liar and a player. When my family history tells me that. But I have the chance to change it. My parents didn’t really change it, they have left me behind but they always come back with apologizes.
I am sorry that I left; I have left many people in the dust. Mainly for no reason, my reason was … well I have no reason besides. “I didn’t want you anymore”. I didn’t have any reason to be near you. I wonder how it would feel if I saw these people again, what would they say to me. I am now in a place, where I can take criticism. I can take it.
For now on I will be honest, actually lately since the past year and half I have been very honest. I don’t want to waste anyone’s time. If I don’t like you, I will tell you.
I don’t want to be an “eenie meenie miney mo lova”
But I believe I have been in the past, I am truly sorry about that.
Eenie Meenie.
I am indecisive
I seriously can’t decide, especially when it comes to what I want in my life, my love life, my future, my relationships with people.
I will always being looking from left to right, up and down, backwards and forwards.
When I look into people’s eyes I always try to figure what their problem is, who hurt them, what has hurt them, why?
I feel that everyone has a pain, but I am such a curious person, I want to know what the pain is, but for some reason I don’t apply what I already know. I would never tell anyone my pain so why should I expect to have anyone tell me their pain.
I have left people; I believe it’s in my genetics genes.
My great-grandmother left her husband and her children. Abandoned them
My other great-grandfather left his wife and children, so that he could all the fun he wanted, that’s why my mother refuses for me to be with Asians.
I always felt like I am genetically programmed to be a cheater, a liar and a player. When my family history tells me that. But I have the chance to change it. My parents didn’t really change it, they have left me behind but they always come back with apologizes.
I am sorry that I left; I have left many people in the dust. Mainly for no reason, my reason was … well I have no reason besides. “I didn’t want you anymore”. I didn’t have any reason to be near you. I wonder how it would feel if I saw these people again, what would they say to me. I am now in a place, where I can take criticism. I can take it.
For now on I will be honest, actually lately since the past year and half I have been very honest. I don’t want to waste anyone’s time. If I don’t like you, I will tell you.
I don’t want to be an “eenie meenie miney mo lova”
But I believe I have been in the past, I am truly sorry about that.