i wonder if retarded people that have the brain capacity of a six year old are happy...
MSI tonight! It was a fucking great show. i feel like when i'm experiencing something great, i don't realize how great it really is until i experience its absence. Lately life has been good.. a lot more sober. I really like it that way, too. My mind is clear and my conscience isn't beating me up about the downward spiral i'm going down with endless substances. I'm glad it's turned more occasional.
I miss my old group of friends, and the old days. It's not the same anymore, they're becoming acquaintances and not good friends. I feel detached from so many people. But its like, i don't care until i see them, and then i'm left missing them and the way it used to be. but like, i choose to be anti social and only really hang out with a few people. i wish there were no barriers between friends. Actually, i wish i wasn't such a mental case.. that would fix everything.
You know how everyone has like, this passion? something they excel at? And they have to be like.. productive and shit. Why am i not productive? My passion? thought. why can't that fucking be enough? why can't i just sit around all day and analyze, and have that be my way of being productive? ehhh.. because that bores me too. it's like... i want to know so much and i'm motivated to start, but get bored and quit. nothing is ever satisfying.
I miss my old group of friends, and the old days. It's not the same anymore, they're becoming acquaintances and not good friends. I feel detached from so many people. But its like, i don't care until i see them, and then i'm left missing them and the way it used to be. but like, i choose to be anti social and only really hang out with a few people. i wish there were no barriers between friends. Actually, i wish i wasn't such a mental case.. that would fix everything.
You know how everyone has like, this passion? something they excel at? And they have to be like.. productive and shit. Why am i not productive? My passion? thought. why can't that fucking be enough? why can't i just sit around all day and analyze, and have that be my way of being productive? ehhh.. because that bores me too. it's like... i want to know so much and i'm motivated to start, but get bored and quit. nothing is ever satisfying.