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I'm overcome by guilt.
Everytime things get complicated or intricate I hit the road.
IE - Peter's brother committing suicide and David's grandmother slowly, painfully dying of cancer.
I complicate otherwise fine relationships because I can't deal.
So what do I do when something happens to the next guy or someone close to him?
I'm sure I'll run.
And another thing... Now that In live alone how the hell am I supposed to get to sleep at night without over medicating?
I finally found out that I passed my written board, now I'm in no hurry to schedule my practical.
I'm in no hurry to do anything.
Today it all hit me and I cried, embarrassing.
Still can't find the cat or anyone I consider a friend.
I am incredibly overwhelmed today.
Tomorrow even looks grim.
This will pass, it has to.
Everytime things get complicated or intricate I hit the road.
IE - Peter's brother committing suicide and David's grandmother slowly, painfully dying of cancer.
I complicate otherwise fine relationships because I can't deal.
So what do I do when something happens to the next guy or someone close to him?
I'm sure I'll run.
And another thing... Now that In live alone how the hell am I supposed to get to sleep at night without over medicating?
I finally found out that I passed my written board, now I'm in no hurry to schedule my practical.
I'm in no hurry to do anything.
Today it all hit me and I cried, embarrassing.
Still can't find the cat or anyone I consider a friend.
I am incredibly overwhelmed today.
Tomorrow even looks grim.
This will pass, it has to.