The Cure to Growing Older
I found
I found Gore Boulevard today
It wasn’t in Oklahoma where I thought it would always be
That place that I drove so many nights
(and fear I’ll never see again)
To clear my head
To give my friends something to do
To just be inside my skin for a while
I believe that people are smarter than we give them credit for
I’ve heard so many genius things out of “average” people
I think if everyone had an Alice
(that’s my car; we go to Wonderland
Way before the drugs.
And way after.)
They could just figure it all out
I drove and drove and drove
And felt that familiar fear
Of not knowing where I was
The one I felt before Gore Boulevard was
Commercialized
By my friends back home
And I felt that same feeling
The one I thought made me alive
The “I could die right now
And be happy” feeling
And then leaping in front of it
Like all the deer I was afraid would come out of nowhere
Was a feeling of
NOT YET
NOT NOW
JUST LET ME FEEL THIS AGAIN
And I understood.
All those gods I was chasing
All the voices I heard echoed back in my mind
Were me
Asking me to come home
To come back to what I already am
And all I wanted was to see the sunrise
Just like Gore.
To drive down in darkness
And drive back like a phoenix
Seeing all the things hidden to me by the night
Illuminated for me and Alice
And whoever else happened to be there at the time
To smell morning
And I was overwhelmed by the idea
That the first time Alice and I saw fresh daylight
My hands stuck to the steering wheel as they did tonight
Damp from the impending rain
And I knew that I was new
I found Gore Boulevard today
It was hiding inside me all along
I found Gore Boulevard today
It wasn’t in Oklahoma where I thought it would always be
That place that I drove so many nights
(and fear I’ll never see again)
To clear my head
To give my friends something to do
To just be inside my skin for a while
I believe that people are smarter than we give them credit for
I’ve heard so many genius things out of “average” people
I think if everyone had an Alice
(that’s my car; we go to Wonderland
Way before the drugs.
And way after.)
They could just figure it all out
I drove and drove and drove
And felt that familiar fear
Of not knowing where I was
The one I felt before Gore Boulevard was
Commercialized
By my friends back home
And I felt that same feeling
The one I thought made me alive
The “I could die right now
And be happy” feeling
And then leaping in front of it
Like all the deer I was afraid would come out of nowhere
Was a feeling of
NOT YET
NOT NOW
JUST LET ME FEEL THIS AGAIN
And I understood.
All those gods I was chasing
All the voices I heard echoed back in my mind
Were me
Asking me to come home
To come back to what I already am
And all I wanted was to see the sunrise
Just like Gore.
To drive down in darkness
And drive back like a phoenix
Seeing all the things hidden to me by the night
Illuminated for me and Alice
And whoever else happened to be there at the time
To smell morning
And I was overwhelmed by the idea
That the first time Alice and I saw fresh daylight
My hands stuck to the steering wheel as they did tonight
Damp from the impending rain
And I knew that I was new
I found Gore Boulevard today
It was hiding inside me all along