apparently i'm depressed....
So I think I am an official retard. I am a complete failure at life! The only thing I really do is envy other peoples lives. I honestly just wish I was anyone except for the person that I am. I'm such a waste of existence. And it's my own fault! I know this! This is one never changing fact about me. I am the reason my life is such shit. But now that I realize all of the mistakes that I have made and all the wrong paths I have taken ... I don't know what to do to change anything. I have no drive. No ambitions. No plans for the future. I live in a day to day existence of mediocrity. I know that not every one is destined for greatness, but aren't you at least supposed to try to achieve it??? That is my one major fault I think... my complete apathy to my own condition... and the entire human condition if I am honest with myself...
Okay I am severely sleep deprived and just managing to depress myself more when I didn't even realize I was depressed until I started writing.... goodnight!
Okay I am severely sleep deprived and just managing to depress myself more when I didn't even realize I was depressed until I started writing.... goodnight!