Pain is a funny thing
Two Saturdays ago I went to the ER with the worst headache I have ever had. I hate to even call it a headache though because it was a kind of pain I have never experienced in my life before. It was white hot throbbing pain focused on two regions near the back of my head. Thinking back it's hard for me to even conceive of that level of pain now, like I can't even believe it was that bad. I know it was though, because I was pacing around my apartment trying to somehow escape or just lessen the pain I had with no success. I was treated at the ER and with my pain at a level 4, sent home. So after 3 hours, some drugs, and a CT I left with a looming bill and not a lot of confidence that I have any idea what was going on with my head. They said to make an appt with my PCP to see what treatment should be going forward. Here's the thing though, I have a shit relationship with my PCP - I feel like he doesn't listen well to me and he insulted me the last visit I had with him as I was recounting to him how I (at the time) had lost 10lbs through weight watchers. He kinda sniffed at that and told me that in order to achieve real significant weight loss I need to do high rep workouts.
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUCK YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!
ADDITIONALLY - probably 80-85% of weight loss is contributed to DIET and the rest would be activity level. I actually didn't know this fact at the time so I wasn't able to lay it on Dr. him, but nonetheless I felt insulted AND he is an asshole!
Back to my original point...I'm not even sure that the actions taken at the ER did anything. Actually I take that back, because since they told me the CT was normal I probably don't have a tumor or brain bleed. So the day before the same thing happened to me with all the pain and it lasted about 4 hours until it went down to a pain level of 4. And I'm pretty sure the thing that made me call my parents on Saturday and then agree to go to the ER was that it was happening AGAIN.
Up until yesterday I was taking Advil multiple times a day because the pain level 4 headache was still rocking, yesterday was my first Advil free day since. Today I have been trying to not take Advil even though I have a rebound headache in the front of my head.
And to conclude I now have a fear that I will do something or be just fucking chilling and that pain will come back full force. If (when?) that happens I'm not even sure what I will do. Do I go to the ER again, or just like wait it out for the three or four hours it might last? I guess it really depends on whats going on when it happens and how bad it is. This sucks whole dicks though, and I hate it.