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Me and Matt are splitting up. It's horrible. I feel rotten. We (well, he) wants to do it amicably and still be friends. He still wants to come to my graduation, and I still want him there. But I don't want to split up. I would do anything, find anyway that we could to stay together. But I think I had my one chance in the summer, and since I moved to Barnsley I've been so busy and tired with work that I became preoccupied.
I went to work today, didn't want to mope about the flat would rather have had something to do. But I was sat in the staff meeting and my eyes started going, and my arm went numb so I had to go out. Then the pins and needles in my throat started then the headache. It wasn't as bad a migraine as I have had in the past but it still didn't feel good. I had to have a lie down in the assessment bedroom! Then I came home.
I feel so fucking shit. And I just want my mum. But she's 80 miles away and all my friends are too far away. The only other person I want to make me feel better, can't.
I feel so lonely.
xxx
I went to work today, didn't want to mope about the flat would rather have had something to do. But I was sat in the staff meeting and my eyes started going, and my arm went numb so I had to go out. Then the pins and needles in my throat started then the headache. It wasn't as bad a migraine as I have had in the past but it still didn't feel good. I had to have a lie down in the assessment bedroom! Then I came home.
I feel so fucking shit. And I just want my mum. But she's 80 miles away and all my friends are too far away. The only other person I want to make me feel better, can't.
I feel so lonely.
xxx