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I've graduated from college. Last Thursday was my last day of school. I woke up and went to Herkimer Coffee and finished my final for my urban political geography class. There was a werid commotion in the coffee shop when I was there where a guy ran in after almost being ran over by a car, and then the driver chased him into the coffee shop. Then Dave Matthews came in. It sounds like a weird dream. I finished my final, went home and showered, and then went to school and went to the Geography graduation. It was a nice ceremony, a little lonely. I didn't have any friends or family there. I realized a few things: I didn't do enough in school. People were doing research and participating in presentations and symposiums, honors programs, etc. I didn't know about some of these things, I probably would have done them. I didn't now about the honors program, or how to apply for it. Also it occurred to me that I graduated from college. Obviously. But when I was going to the hospital the night that my dad died, I said that I was going to finish school for him, and now I have.
I was supposed to go to my moms house for 10 days following graduation to housesit and watch Theo, while my mom was on vacation, but she cancelled her trip. I still went for the weekend and we had a party. I got some nice cards and my mom gave me money. I got to see Jake when I was there.
I stopped at Salmon Creek on my way home but didn't really find anything. Then I started working. Just like that. Graduated on Thursday and by Tuesday I am back in the work force full time. It's fine, I'm working at Always Greener, its just not what I thought I was going to be doing, by any means. It's nice to have a job, and like that job, but... when it comes down to it, it's not super challenging or fulfilling. It's retail. I quit my career in the medical field to work in retail cannabis.
The whole reason I started this post was because I am just sitting here on the couch looking up music on youtube, searching for songs I had saved on my phone, and I ran into a bunch of pictures of Mike and I just broke down. Why. He is such a shit. I just had no idea we were on a course to hating eachother. Never would have guessed it. But all I have are pictures of him with soft eyes. Caring eyes. Sad.
I was supposed to go to my moms house for 10 days following graduation to housesit and watch Theo, while my mom was on vacation, but she cancelled her trip. I still went for the weekend and we had a party. I got some nice cards and my mom gave me money. I got to see Jake when I was there.
I stopped at Salmon Creek on my way home but didn't really find anything. Then I started working. Just like that. Graduated on Thursday and by Tuesday I am back in the work force full time. It's fine, I'm working at Always Greener, its just not what I thought I was going to be doing, by any means. It's nice to have a job, and like that job, but... when it comes down to it, it's not super challenging or fulfilling. It's retail. I quit my career in the medical field to work in retail cannabis.
The whole reason I started this post was because I am just sitting here on the couch looking up music on youtube, searching for songs I had saved on my phone, and I ran into a bunch of pictures of Mike and I just broke down. Why. He is such a shit. I just had no idea we were on a course to hating eachother. Never would have guessed it. But all I have are pictures of him with soft eyes. Caring eyes. Sad.