why do people always assume things about what im feeling/thinking/doing?
i just dont understand. it seems im always "must be mad". no matter if im there, or not there, or whatever. sigh. im not angry person and yet it makes me wonder. if im constantly gettin in trouble for being bitter about something (if i am being or not), it makes me wonder fi u seem to just start to think im jsut always bitter...more of a self-conscience thing..but still. why do u assume im always upset..i do have mood swings and get annoyed w/ others..not just u. sigh. oh wells...just needed to ramble and see that thought written out.
life..is goin ok. lots of docs appts. not fun. and im still upset i cant go to the cabin- would have been a good getaway from at least some of the drama..sigh! still may go for a night..workin on that one. we'll see. lots of college stuff goin on. hard not havin dad around here. hard not always havin someone to talk to when i feel the urge..i do phone calls when i need that. lookin fwd to tech. wisconisn will be ok if i can go to nebraska and get a break. nebraska would be tight as shit. im crossing my fingers for that..and other things. sigh.
u know, i miss that feeling. i see places/things that would be perfect for it. i miss it, im not gonna go lookin but it would be nice. sigh. i like life now, cant have it both ways eh? oh wells..i guess im happy w/ it now..i just have those moments were i think it would be perfect now and i need that now. sigh.
rest of summer pretty busy. appts next week. 20-22 at tech for orientation. 26-aug 16 in wisconsin (ill be on the net a lot if u wanna get a hold of me, also i have free long dis/nights/weekends and take my cell. feel free to call.). then i have a couple of like 5 days and school starts. busy eh?
well i think i need to rest..my head is thinking about too many things and feelin kinda low and yet confused. sigh.
life..is goin ok. lots of docs appts. not fun. and im still upset i cant go to the cabin- would have been a good getaway from at least some of the drama..sigh! still may go for a night..workin on that one. we'll see. lots of college stuff goin on. hard not havin dad around here. hard not always havin someone to talk to when i feel the urge..i do phone calls when i need that. lookin fwd to tech. wisconisn will be ok if i can go to nebraska and get a break. nebraska would be tight as shit. im crossing my fingers for that..and other things. sigh.
u know, i miss that feeling. i see places/things that would be perfect for it. i miss it, im not gonna go lookin but it would be nice. sigh. i like life now, cant have it both ways eh? oh wells..i guess im happy w/ it now..i just have those moments were i think it would be perfect now and i need that now. sigh.
rest of summer pretty busy. appts next week. 20-22 at tech for orientation. 26-aug 16 in wisconsin (ill be on the net a lot if u wanna get a hold of me, also i have free long dis/nights/weekends and take my cell. feel free to call.). then i have a couple of like 5 days and school starts. busy eh?
well i think i need to rest..my head is thinking about too many things and feelin kinda low and yet confused. sigh.