ill be true, ill be useful, ill be cavalier. ill be yours my dear.
ok so if anyone read my last entry, somehow my mom found out what happened and i am in deeeeeep shit. she called me up new years eve and started yelling at me, hung up, and then drove four hours the next morning to come and get me. aghhhhh. life has been such a mess since then. to put it simply, she has no trust in me. she took away my cell phone, took away my internet, im not allowed to go anywhere, not allowed to have anyone over, and im not allowed to go to my hometown for the summer because she can't trust me with my grandparents. the worst of all of these would have to be the last one, i have spend every summer in my hometown, and its just not summer for me if im not there. hopefully i can gain her trust before then? yea its possible, but not probable. i still get to play basketball tho, so all is not lost, and the other day she asked me if i was going on any of the ski trips (with my school). umm hello? i thought i wasn't allowed to go anywhere!? but yea i guess she figures i can't get into much trouble if i go anywhere, its not like i know enough people to go do anything stupid (like i did over break). ive felt really shitty about it..im really sorry for what happened, i just wasn't thinking. as usual. im such a selfish person, i kno i kno. well yea in case ur wondering how im online? im at school. i have a game today at Villa Maria, wish me luck.