Too Much For One Day
Today started out terribly. I left for class only to be stuck in traffic on all four highways I have to drive to school. I was almost sideswiped by some idiot who absolutely HAD to get ahead of me as two lanes merged, nearly pushing me into a semi on my left side. I laid on the horn the entire time, and this jerk didn't even flinch. It was the first time in many years that I actually flipped someone off while driving. I barely made it to class in time to take not one, but TWO quizzes (missed one on the snow day last week).
Lab was terrible. There are so many things to remember. What it is, where it is, and what it does. Then incorporating that into our checkoff. Being grilled on things we've never gone over in class doesn't make things any easier. We were all so confused about what we were doing that not all of us were able to get checked off. Our prof tells us to do certain things, but then throws something extra in by saying, "oh, by the way, you should also be doing this." Well, she never told us that before we started practicing what we had to do. Not to mention our textbook is horrid. The way it's laid out could get anyone confused. You're reading along in the chapter, and in the middle of the text, all of a sudden there are pictures of different health assessment tests with descriptions of what you're looking for, how to perform these tests, and what the abnormal findings are. Forget whatever you were just trying to read. It makes everything so confusing, and we forget what we were originally trying to learn!
All during class I'm sitting there wondering when my doctor's office will call me with biopsy results, wondering if they were normal or abnormal given my previous history, so I'm stressing out about that too. I finally received a voicemail that everything was benign (normal), so at least I had that off my shoulders.
I get to work to find there are way too many flu shots on the schedule for everyone to handle, and I end up being a floater to help everyone out. I didn't mind this so much until I had 2-3 people in a row asking me for help, so I felt like I was being strung up and quartered in every direction. The smallest things were annoying me at work so much. I felt like I would eventually snap at my friends when I didn't want to. Thankfully that didn't happen, but I felt SO close to it.
As I'm sitting here typing this entry, I'm trying to let myself have a good hard cry. It's been a long time since I've had one, and it's not coming. I'm really annoyed by this. Am I turning into some kind of ice queen? I used to be able to let the tears flow freely, but not so much anymore. Maybe I'm just distracting myself too much. Maybe my subconscious is distracting me this way. I don't know. I have to get to work on something that's due tomorrow. At least tomorrow's class will be relaxing and easy. I'm also grateful that it starts at 9, so I have an extra hour for whatever I need to do.
Time to go pop some more Midol.
Lab was terrible. There are so many things to remember. What it is, where it is, and what it does. Then incorporating that into our checkoff. Being grilled on things we've never gone over in class doesn't make things any easier. We were all so confused about what we were doing that not all of us were able to get checked off. Our prof tells us to do certain things, but then throws something extra in by saying, "oh, by the way, you should also be doing this." Well, she never told us that before we started practicing what we had to do. Not to mention our textbook is horrid. The way it's laid out could get anyone confused. You're reading along in the chapter, and in the middle of the text, all of a sudden there are pictures of different health assessment tests with descriptions of what you're looking for, how to perform these tests, and what the abnormal findings are. Forget whatever you were just trying to read. It makes everything so confusing, and we forget what we were originally trying to learn!
All during class I'm sitting there wondering when my doctor's office will call me with biopsy results, wondering if they were normal or abnormal given my previous history, so I'm stressing out about that too. I finally received a voicemail that everything was benign (normal), so at least I had that off my shoulders.
I get to work to find there are way too many flu shots on the schedule for everyone to handle, and I end up being a floater to help everyone out. I didn't mind this so much until I had 2-3 people in a row asking me for help, so I felt like I was being strung up and quartered in every direction. The smallest things were annoying me at work so much. I felt like I would eventually snap at my friends when I didn't want to. Thankfully that didn't happen, but I felt SO close to it.
As I'm sitting here typing this entry, I'm trying to let myself have a good hard cry. It's been a long time since I've had one, and it's not coming. I'm really annoyed by this. Am I turning into some kind of ice queen? I used to be able to let the tears flow freely, but not so much anymore. Maybe I'm just distracting myself too much. Maybe my subconscious is distracting me this way. I don't know. I have to get to work on something that's due tomorrow. At least tomorrow's class will be relaxing and easy. I'm also grateful that it starts at 9, so I have an extra hour for whatever I need to do.
Time to go pop some more Midol.