Just a day, just an ordinary day.

[alibear86]

So last night I sat around my house, semi-organizing my parents' wedding anniversary party and was really upset that I was staying in for the night. I wanted to go out so bad, but no one was around and I didn't feel like phoning anyone, mainly because I think Andrea, Kati and Marilyn are all mad at me for not being able to drive on friday night, so then they just dropped me off and they all did their own fun things, kinda upset, it's kinda like old times when I was left out of everything. Anyways, I was so sad and mad and feeling sorry for myself this weekend but today changed my mind about everything. Unfortunately a fellow co-worker of mine's dad died on Thursday and he came to work today. I felt so awful for him, I gave him a hug as he cried. Then throughout our shift, I made it my duty to make him feel better as much as I could. And within no time he was laughing and smiling and feeling better, and to me it was the first time I had ever been selfless and had helped someone for the better. I was spending so much time beating myself up about all the stuff in my life, and now I realize how lucky I am. I feel like a much better person at the moment, I hope other people see it too. It's crazy how much I have learnt in one day, but knowing I made him smile and laugh on one of the hardest days of his life, makes me believe everything will be ok, and yes, I can get on with my life and enjoy it.

[please say honestly you won't give up on me...and i shall believe]