as the flies suckle the leftover droplets of juice...(warning: negativity ahead)
...i watch them with discontent. and not just because they are slurping happily away on my bottle of mango papaya juice (which the ingredients inform me is mostly apple juice, ha!)but because they are happy and carefree and dont have to teach a class called "caring for the earth" an unfavorable ammount of times per week. So my day started out alright. I led a group of service learners into the dreaded tree farm to haul off dead branches for 3 hours, which is usually a pretty monotonous and drab service project. However, the tree farm was pretty clean when we arrived so we spent but an hour hauling off branches and by that time the forest was nothing but pine trees, cones, needles, human waste composted soil, and the occasional glittering green sprawl of poison ivy. Our work was completed and so we proceeded to play hide and seek tag and capture the flag for the remainder of the morning, which was a lot of fun. But then I had my class to look forward to after lunch and i wasn't at all excited. Id already taught it twice by myself this week, its a 3 hour class mind you, because my partner in all this had to leave for grad school last weekend. i miss her a lot but even more because of this ridiculous class. But anyway, i went home, took a power nap and was pumped and ready for this class. the 3rd and final of the week and the last one i would have to teach this summer!!! yipee!!! The class went pretty well in the beginning. i was a little nervous because my supervisor was there as well to observe me, but i knew what i was doing and had good energy considering my actual lack of enthusiasm. so we get to the part in the class where i give them this quiz type thing. its called an eco footprint calculator and basically it measures how many acres of biologically productive land is necessary to produce the resources that sustain the individual's lifestyle. fine. so the whole time this kid who is short and chubby with a mean little scrunched up face like the cat in cinderella, had been pretty irritating, and then throughout the whole activity he was complaining how this wasn't fair because he, being an athelete, needed more things ( he had over 50 pairs of shoes including the special ones for wrestling, baseball and football, never reused anything like water
bottles and of course used a lot of land that was converted into sports fields, gyms etc. ) so it tallied up pretty high. he proceded to get very upset with me that his "footprint" was so huge.. well oh my goodness!!!! of course it is! did he want me to excuse him from this reality? Oh, i'm so sorry little boy, ive made a mistake, of course its ok that your consumer habits are out of whack, youre an athelete, a prized possesion of our modern world and american society! consume away!!!some don't have enough to eat or clean water to drink, but hey those wrestling shoes are looking a little worn, lets get you another couple pairs so you'll be set for a bit! grrrr. so then i had to teach them about composting and granted, i mean its interesting to me ,especially the worms but i know its not for a lot of people. but i tried to be really enthusiastic and get them excited about decay and poo and rich soil and when i asked if anyone had any questions this same spoiled kid was like, "i really think we all just want to get out of here and go back to our lodge." You little shit! fuck him for not caring about all this important stuff or at least having the respect to pretend like he did! god, i really was crushed and my supervisor just looked at me and my heart sank. i mean i didn't want to be there but i was because i care about teaching this stuff and about the future and good decision making! i'm tired as hell of that class and he ended it on such a bad note for me. god. this entry is such a negative rant. sorry y'all. livejournal is so good for venting though.. ah. cant wait to come back to guilford.
bottles and of course used a lot of land that was converted into sports fields, gyms etc. ) so it tallied up pretty high. he proceded to get very upset with me that his "footprint" was so huge.. well oh my goodness!!!! of course it is! did he want me to excuse him from this reality? Oh, i'm so sorry little boy, ive made a mistake, of course its ok that your consumer habits are out of whack, youre an athelete, a prized possesion of our modern world and american society! consume away!!!some don't have enough to eat or clean water to drink, but hey those wrestling shoes are looking a little worn, lets get you another couple pairs so you'll be set for a bit! grrrr. so then i had to teach them about composting and granted, i mean its interesting to me ,especially the worms but i know its not for a lot of people. but i tried to be really enthusiastic and get them excited about decay and poo and rich soil and when i asked if anyone had any questions this same spoiled kid was like, "i really think we all just want to get out of here and go back to our lodge." You little shit! fuck him for not caring about all this important stuff or at least having the respect to pretend like he did! god, i really was crushed and my supervisor just looked at me and my heart sank. i mean i didn't want to be there but i was because i care about teaching this stuff and about the future and good decision making! i'm tired as hell of that class and he ended it on such a bad note for me. god. this entry is such a negative rant. sorry y'all. livejournal is so good for venting though.. ah. cant wait to come back to guilford.