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two, 2 15 year old girls have tlaked to me tonight about being gay. One came out, competly, one just started to question, but just got to freaked out and signed off line. I talked in person with the first girl. But the second is freaking out, she texting me on her phone. hopefully she'll calm down, she's hyper with it still really lost. While the first pretneded to beat around the bush and finally said it. So cool that she could talk about it. She ketp telling me how she can't talk to people. Dude I am so tried now though. I'm so lost in everything, I don't know how to talk about being gay or coming out or dude its so weird. and sophmore year sucked big time for me, and thats where they are same damn time frame, and then dude talking suicide thoughts attemps more gay kids committ suicide then anybody. these to won't , i know them but its so hard and u just want somebody to be there. I went off on thursday night, I think I made that post private though about how I don't seem to have any but 3 friendships where the person hasn't told me they look up to me. I like my friends where me and the person can talk about stuff together, my other friendships are awesome, but they make me feel old, even when the people are older then me. I love being able to talk to Williams the rare times I do, and I miss tharpe casue they remind me I'm a kid and they give me advice. its hard to give advice when ur not sure its working ffor u. I guess I'm just really worried about everybody and I want to make sure something i say doesn't back fire on them. They need somebody to listen so I am but then when they want advice or just need someone to fill the quiet space when they are thinking thats when I get worried. Well I'm so exhasted, I guess I should go to bed and try and read some for psych. Oh but first. Rock climbing was a blast and so was the forgotten, real eay movie to count down to the scary sences but still cool. I'm so in love with rock climbing, its such a blast. me and nicole belayed each other a lot. that was really cool. shes a blast. really needy girlfriend, she pouted everytime jason didn't watch her do something, but it a cute funy way and she got over it really quick, i dono maybe she was trying to be funny. well i'm exhasted. night night