passive-aggressive bullshit
"good luck in life. i don't want more trouble. you've been a burden since we started dating. in retrospect i should have spent all that effort on someone who would appreciate it. i hope the whole tattooed slut thing works out for you. i learned that with selfish people you don't always get what you give" - jamie.
dear jamie,
i don't believe i'm a slut, and i do not believe i'm psychotic. i do believe however, you only liked me when i was on my meds. when i stopped taking them, i started to see that what you called "support" was just doing lipservice, getting your friends to think that you were the loving boyfriend. not so. for you to tell me all the good things you did, indicated to me that you were keeping a point scoring system on our relationship. it was always 20 points to jamie, none to kiem. when you asked me what i did for you, i refused to answer, because everything i did for you would be seen as meaningless. i mean, if i did any good and you didn't see it, you obviously didn't appreciate it at all.
i stopped seeing lots of my friends because you always wanted to see me instead. that and you thought michaela was a drug-fucked little loser. that i couldn't handle. you would bitch about my friends, and just to keep up with you, i'd feed you bullshit about me hating them too. you know what? i lost lots of friends because of that. you always had your friends and i never held you back. i would change myself for you, i'd stop wearing the clothes that i loved. i was trying to be like you. when you said you didn't want a carbon copy, i'd go back to being myself and you'd laugh in my face. i mean, come on! what did you want?
you fucking disappoint me. i hope you find yourself another mother. you really need it. you can't even look after yourself. all i did wrong was not take my meds and be reluctant to find myself another psychiatrist. you never took the blame for anything, and your "dates" always comprised of sitting in front of the telly for a few hours. you grew fat and didn't do anything about it... god, so many things, so little time!
one day you'll realise how much of a retard you are. maybe one day in the not so near future. i'm not willing to wait around for a few years for you to grow up.
maybe you're better off this way.
love, the girl you so badly needed, so you'd insult her, hoping you'll get her back,
kiem.
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dear friends,
you were right. he was stupid, juvenile and a waste of time. i don't think he appreciated me. he thinks he knows me, but he doesn't. i know that i don't know him, and i don't tell myself that i do. he's complicated and so am i. all he wanted to know was kiem on drugged up on "mood stabilisers" what a joke. all they did was numb me up so i could stuffer and not see it all.
i'm moving on. i can't believe i dated such a moron.
cheers!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
dear matt,
you were right. i hate you for being right. but yeh, you were spot on.
damn you for being correct.
kiem
Passive - A perfect circle
“Dead as dead can be,” my doctor tells me
But I just can’t believe him, ever the optimistic one
I’m sure of your ability to become my perfect enemy
Wake up and face me, don’t play dead cause maybe
Someday I will walk away and say, “You disappoint me,”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Leaning over you here, cold and catatonic
I catch a brief reflection of what you could and might have been
It's your right and your ability
To become…my perfect enemy…
Wake up (we'll catch you) and face me (come one now),
Don’t play dead (don't play dead)
Cause maybe (because maybe)
Someday I’ll (someday I'll) walk away and say, “You disappoint me,”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
You’re better of this; you’re better off this;
Maybe you’re better off!
Wake up (can't you) and face me (come on now),
Don’t play dead (don't play dead)
Cause maybe (because maybe)
Someday I’ll (someday I'll) walk away and say, “You fucking disappoint me!”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Go ahead and play dead
I know that you can hear this
Go ahead and play dead
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
You fucking disappoint me!
Passive aggressive bullshit
dear jamie,
i don't believe i'm a slut, and i do not believe i'm psychotic. i do believe however, you only liked me when i was on my meds. when i stopped taking them, i started to see that what you called "support" was just doing lipservice, getting your friends to think that you were the loving boyfriend. not so. for you to tell me all the good things you did, indicated to me that you were keeping a point scoring system on our relationship. it was always 20 points to jamie, none to kiem. when you asked me what i did for you, i refused to answer, because everything i did for you would be seen as meaningless. i mean, if i did any good and you didn't see it, you obviously didn't appreciate it at all.
i stopped seeing lots of my friends because you always wanted to see me instead. that and you thought michaela was a drug-fucked little loser. that i couldn't handle. you would bitch about my friends, and just to keep up with you, i'd feed you bullshit about me hating them too. you know what? i lost lots of friends because of that. you always had your friends and i never held you back. i would change myself for you, i'd stop wearing the clothes that i loved. i was trying to be like you. when you said you didn't want a carbon copy, i'd go back to being myself and you'd laugh in my face. i mean, come on! what did you want?
you fucking disappoint me. i hope you find yourself another mother. you really need it. you can't even look after yourself. all i did wrong was not take my meds and be reluctant to find myself another psychiatrist. you never took the blame for anything, and your "dates" always comprised of sitting in front of the telly for a few hours. you grew fat and didn't do anything about it... god, so many things, so little time!
one day you'll realise how much of a retard you are. maybe one day in the not so near future. i'm not willing to wait around for a few years for you to grow up.
maybe you're better off this way.
love, the girl you so badly needed, so you'd insult her, hoping you'll get her back,
kiem.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
dear friends,
you were right. he was stupid, juvenile and a waste of time. i don't think he appreciated me. he thinks he knows me, but he doesn't. i know that i don't know him, and i don't tell myself that i do. he's complicated and so am i. all he wanted to know was kiem on drugged up on "mood stabilisers" what a joke. all they did was numb me up so i could stuffer and not see it all.
i'm moving on. i can't believe i dated such a moron.
cheers!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
dear matt,
you were right. i hate you for being right. but yeh, you were spot on.
damn you for being correct.
kiem
Passive - A perfect circle
“Dead as dead can be,” my doctor tells me
But I just can’t believe him, ever the optimistic one
I’m sure of your ability to become my perfect enemy
Wake up and face me, don’t play dead cause maybe
Someday I will walk away and say, “You disappoint me,”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Leaning over you here, cold and catatonic
I catch a brief reflection of what you could and might have been
It's your right and your ability
To become…my perfect enemy…
Wake up (we'll catch you) and face me (come one now),
Don’t play dead (don't play dead)
Cause maybe (because maybe)
Someday I’ll (someday I'll) walk away and say, “You disappoint me,”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
You’re better of this; you’re better off this;
Maybe you’re better off!
Wake up (can't you) and face me (come on now),
Don’t play dead (don't play dead)
Cause maybe (because maybe)
Someday I’ll (someday I'll) walk away and say, “You fucking disappoint me!”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Go ahead and play dead
I know that you can hear this
Go ahead and play dead
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
You fucking disappoint me!
Passive aggressive bullshit