so tired of being called fat
i can't stand it any more. eating is now something disgusting and feral and i can't bring myself to eat. i had one rice paper roll for dinner and that was more than enough for me, but my tummy wanted more... if you get me. but i can't do it. i'm fat.
it's the same all the time, being made to stand on the scales in front of everyone and have my weight compared to everyone else in the family, being the heaviest... furthermore, everyone comments on it. everyone. they can't stop telling me how disgusting i look, how big i am from behind. what is this? the look of food repulses me now. i just want to be thin, have people able to look at me without thinking i'm some feral, fat little shit. it scares me and it hurts. maybe starving myself is the only answer. i can't bring myself to exercise lest i get hungry.
i don't know what to do any more. i just want to die.
it's the same all the time, being made to stand on the scales in front of everyone and have my weight compared to everyone else in the family, being the heaviest... furthermore, everyone comments on it. everyone. they can't stop telling me how disgusting i look, how big i am from behind. what is this? the look of food repulses me now. i just want to be thin, have people able to look at me without thinking i'm some feral, fat little shit. it scares me and it hurts. maybe starving myself is the only answer. i can't bring myself to exercise lest i get hungry.
i don't know what to do any more. i just want to die.