Hmmm
Alrighty... time for one of those great entries about the random things that have happened in the past month since I made an entry everyone can read.
Well, I was bored and reading through the entries I made in early january. one of my goals was to have a 6 pack by march - well, its definately the 7th of march and lemme tell you, I don't have a 6 pack. I'm not exactly in terrible shape, but I have definately been enjoying the ability to drink again since i have been off antibiotics, and let's just say - light beer isn't light enough :)
After another random bout of self-pity and psuedo-depression, I have once again returned to my normal, somewhat sane self. Of course, I was a total bitch for about two weeks and the people at work wanted me to get in an unfortunate accident that would keep me out of work for a while. it didn't happen, but luckily, on wednesday I was able to pull myself into a good mood and leave on a good note. It didnt help that I worked 9 out of the last 12 days befre break. I was about ready to kill someone, seriously. Lagretta was making my life miserable, and if you talk to anyone from the cafe you'll see that I'm not the only one.
Speaking of things in the cafe... so my newest cafe crush actually returned my sentiments. Thanks to Tim Farmer for breaking the ice and telling him about it. I mean, I would have been pretty embarressed if he hadn't liked me, but he does. I went to Canada with my cousins saturday and met up with the crush there. Things went pretty well, but then they were kind of awkward when I called him yesterday. I guess I kept the conversation pretty short too, so he didn't have much time for conversation, but I dunno... It just seemed like neither of us really had anything to say. Maybe I am just reading too much into this. I have a tendency to do that, after all. But we definately kissed for the first timem while kinda drunk, in typical mel style. Hopefully that didn't ruin anything, cuz he was definately much more affectionate than I was, so its on him if he thinks things went too fast. I'm just really impatient and I wish I knew what he was thinking and where this was going. He told me straight up he wants to hang out more before anything gets serious, which is totally fine, but it makes me feel like he's just leaving himself an out. Whatever, he totally said so many things about how he had a crush on me since we first started working together and he thinks I am beautiful, so obviously I know he's interested, even if he didn't believe it at first. And besides, I know I am prettier than any other girl he might be seeing, so if he chooses someone else over me, its just because he's intimidated. wow - that sounded soooo stuck up... but i mean... i am working on that whole self-esteem thing, and I have to believe its true. After all, he told me he thought I was way out of his league... so why shouldn't I be a little cocky?
Anyway - I'm just going to see if he calls me, and if he doesn't then I'll call him and ask him if he wants to go to Evan and Tom's party on Saturday. Otherwise, maybe he'll call me and ask me to come out with him cuz I know a few of his friends are having a party. I just don't know how much I want to hang out with his drunk self - he's kind of "that guy" when he's drinking, and although he's not directly trying to pick a fight, I think subconsiously he looks for one after he's been drinking. At least from what I can tell from Canada. I'll go into more detail about that in a later entry... I'm pretty open about things, but I don't think this is one of those things to be open about.
Wednesday at 4:30 I am going to pick up my cousin Angelina and take her out shopping for a little bit... She was bummed I didn't make it to her soccer game, and the only reason I didn't go was because I was too tired from Canada. I didn't get home until 7, and then I went straight to bed, and my parents and I spent all day in pjs watching tv. So I told her tonight I would pick her up after school and we'd go shopping. I feel like her big sister, and I hate when she's disappointed by something I do. How do real big sisters handle all this pressure to be a good role model??
I have also been thinking a lot about people I have lost touch with lately. I know its hard in our busy lives to find time to get together, but I feel like even a phone call would go a long way. I know I haven't been the best at that either, and a lot of times I can't go places or do things because I have other commitments or I lack the funds to, but it would still be nice to pick up the phone and chat with people I haven't gotten a chance to catch up with in a while. maybe that'll be one of my belated new years resolutions. The only thing I worry about with that is spreading myself too thin, which happens quite a bit lately. I think that's the real reason I was looking forward to spring break so much - its a break from everyone and everything related to school.
In other news - less than 2 months until I turn 21!!!! I think we're getting a limo a couple weeks after my birthday to take us around to the bars and clubs in pontiac. I think that's the next time Mel is going to be making a big appearance. Hahaha, what am I talking about - I am going to be on a whole new level on my 21st. Especially if we have a limo and I don't have to be responsible at all! my mom was talking about getting either a hummer limo or a party bus - depending on how many people I want to come. So if you're still reading this, you are truly a good friend (or very bored) and should leave me a comment letting me know how awesome you are, and request a space in the limo :) We're gunna be rolling balla style that night! (Its only 2 months away!!!!!!!!)
So yeah - I think thats about all I got, which is depressing because after I finish with this, I have nothing else to do :( I guess I should clean my room and get to bed anyway - and hopefully later this week I'll be able to go crazy and have a good time :) if you're in town, you should definately gimme a call and we'll hang out! Otherwise, I just might start stalking you and calling you obsessively trying to get you to hang out with me :)
Goodnight!!!!!!
Well, I was bored and reading through the entries I made in early january. one of my goals was to have a 6 pack by march - well, its definately the 7th of march and lemme tell you, I don't have a 6 pack. I'm not exactly in terrible shape, but I have definately been enjoying the ability to drink again since i have been off antibiotics, and let's just say - light beer isn't light enough :)
After another random bout of self-pity and psuedo-depression, I have once again returned to my normal, somewhat sane self. Of course, I was a total bitch for about two weeks and the people at work wanted me to get in an unfortunate accident that would keep me out of work for a while. it didn't happen, but luckily, on wednesday I was able to pull myself into a good mood and leave on a good note. It didnt help that I worked 9 out of the last 12 days befre break. I was about ready to kill someone, seriously. Lagretta was making my life miserable, and if you talk to anyone from the cafe you'll see that I'm not the only one.
Speaking of things in the cafe... so my newest cafe crush actually returned my sentiments. Thanks to Tim Farmer for breaking the ice and telling him about it. I mean, I would have been pretty embarressed if he hadn't liked me, but he does. I went to Canada with my cousins saturday and met up with the crush there. Things went pretty well, but then they were kind of awkward when I called him yesterday. I guess I kept the conversation pretty short too, so he didn't have much time for conversation, but I dunno... It just seemed like neither of us really had anything to say. Maybe I am just reading too much into this. I have a tendency to do that, after all. But we definately kissed for the first timem while kinda drunk, in typical mel style. Hopefully that didn't ruin anything, cuz he was definately much more affectionate than I was, so its on him if he thinks things went too fast. I'm just really impatient and I wish I knew what he was thinking and where this was going. He told me straight up he wants to hang out more before anything gets serious, which is totally fine, but it makes me feel like he's just leaving himself an out. Whatever, he totally said so many things about how he had a crush on me since we first started working together and he thinks I am beautiful, so obviously I know he's interested, even if he didn't believe it at first. And besides, I know I am prettier than any other girl he might be seeing, so if he chooses someone else over me, its just because he's intimidated. wow - that sounded soooo stuck up... but i mean... i am working on that whole self-esteem thing, and I have to believe its true. After all, he told me he thought I was way out of his league... so why shouldn't I be a little cocky?
Anyway - I'm just going to see if he calls me, and if he doesn't then I'll call him and ask him if he wants to go to Evan and Tom's party on Saturday. Otherwise, maybe he'll call me and ask me to come out with him cuz I know a few of his friends are having a party. I just don't know how much I want to hang out with his drunk self - he's kind of "that guy" when he's drinking, and although he's not directly trying to pick a fight, I think subconsiously he looks for one after he's been drinking. At least from what I can tell from Canada. I'll go into more detail about that in a later entry... I'm pretty open about things, but I don't think this is one of those things to be open about.
Wednesday at 4:30 I am going to pick up my cousin Angelina and take her out shopping for a little bit... She was bummed I didn't make it to her soccer game, and the only reason I didn't go was because I was too tired from Canada. I didn't get home until 7, and then I went straight to bed, and my parents and I spent all day in pjs watching tv. So I told her tonight I would pick her up after school and we'd go shopping. I feel like her big sister, and I hate when she's disappointed by something I do. How do real big sisters handle all this pressure to be a good role model??
I have also been thinking a lot about people I have lost touch with lately. I know its hard in our busy lives to find time to get together, but I feel like even a phone call would go a long way. I know I haven't been the best at that either, and a lot of times I can't go places or do things because I have other commitments or I lack the funds to, but it would still be nice to pick up the phone and chat with people I haven't gotten a chance to catch up with in a while. maybe that'll be one of my belated new years resolutions. The only thing I worry about with that is spreading myself too thin, which happens quite a bit lately. I think that's the real reason I was looking forward to spring break so much - its a break from everyone and everything related to school.
In other news - less than 2 months until I turn 21!!!! I think we're getting a limo a couple weeks after my birthday to take us around to the bars and clubs in pontiac. I think that's the next time Mel is going to be making a big appearance. Hahaha, what am I talking about - I am going to be on a whole new level on my 21st. Especially if we have a limo and I don't have to be responsible at all! my mom was talking about getting either a hummer limo or a party bus - depending on how many people I want to come. So if you're still reading this, you are truly a good friend (or very bored) and should leave me a comment letting me know how awesome you are, and request a space in the limo :) We're gunna be rolling balla style that night! (Its only 2 months away!!!!!!!!)
So yeah - I think thats about all I got, which is depressing because after I finish with this, I have nothing else to do :( I guess I should clean my room and get to bed anyway - and hopefully later this week I'll be able to go crazy and have a good time :) if you're in town, you should definately gimme a call and we'll hang out! Otherwise, I just might start stalking you and calling you obsessively trying to get you to hang out with me :)
Goodnight!!!!!!