Truth is...
So how have I been? Well lets see... Impatient? Um...lost? De-fucking-pressed again? Well not nearly as bad as before. But still I shouldn't feel this way.
I want to leave home. Kinda. I feel like there is nothing left for me here. Over the past few months I've lost lots. I've also witnessed a few others go through much loss. This is Pain City. I need to leave it in both senses. SO... I'm working as hard as I can with the bands I'm in at the moment. It's leaning more twords the one with the boys at home. Mainly cuz I don't have to write basically everything so it's just more enjoyable and I've known these cats my whole lives so it's really comfortable. Not that I don't find pleasure in the other band, it's just frustrating sometimes. Mainly I guess cuz the other dudes are still in school. And other dumb shit.
I dunno man. I'm sick of not being able to do what I've been wanting to do since fucking middle school. It always feels like I have to wait for people. There's nothing left for my here and I'm simply tired of waiting when I now what is right in front of my face.
What can I say. I'm a picky fuck when it comes to bands. I've been in countless and played with countless. I hate feeling this bitter. I despise it. I know what I want. Like I said: fuck waiting anymore. Thats all I ever do. I put shit off. I (we're) never work hard enough at this. Nah, no more of that crap. I've got shit to loose this time. No more girlfriend, my mom hates me when I'm at the house, people seem to keep dying, I work everyday, blah blah blah.... This is it man. I've had it. I'm sick of the wait.
I want to leave home. Kinda. I feel like there is nothing left for me here. Over the past few months I've lost lots. I've also witnessed a few others go through much loss. This is Pain City. I need to leave it in both senses. SO... I'm working as hard as I can with the bands I'm in at the moment. It's leaning more twords the one with the boys at home. Mainly cuz I don't have to write basically everything so it's just more enjoyable and I've known these cats my whole lives so it's really comfortable. Not that I don't find pleasure in the other band, it's just frustrating sometimes. Mainly I guess cuz the other dudes are still in school. And other dumb shit.
I dunno man. I'm sick of not being able to do what I've been wanting to do since fucking middle school. It always feels like I have to wait for people. There's nothing left for my here and I'm simply tired of waiting when I now what is right in front of my face.
What can I say. I'm a picky fuck when it comes to bands. I've been in countless and played with countless. I hate feeling this bitter. I despise it. I know what I want. Like I said: fuck waiting anymore. Thats all I ever do. I put shit off. I (we're) never work hard enough at this. Nah, no more of that crap. I've got shit to loose this time. No more girlfriend, my mom hates me when I'm at the house, people seem to keep dying, I work everyday, blah blah blah.... This is it man. I've had it. I'm sick of the wait.