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I just read over some old posts for the sake of procrastination. It worked.
Found some interesting things here and there, how ambivalent and noncommital I was when I spoke of the relationship with Cristy. I'm a real dumbass for staying with her for so long, but I can't say I regret it.
Found one thing that reminded me of why I am pissed off today. It goes like this, backstory first.
Last Saturday, I went to see Juan Prophet Organization (check them out, it's worth it) at WallStreet after work. Cristy was there, and things were fine, we were rocking out to this amazing and theatrical show. A whole bunch of good people there too. So I'm hanging out with my friend Amy, and Cristy is closeby when I leave the stage area (upstairs) to look for some other people. A few minutes later Amy comes to me and says: "Cristy just got all in my face and told me that she knows that you and I are sleeping together (!) and that you are the love of her life and that she intends to get you back."
Whoa.
Totally taken aback, I am still talking to Amy when Cristy walks by and asks if I needed a ride, deliberately not looking at Amy. "No."
I send her a text message pretty quick (I've become something of a text message fiend, i can type shit on a phone keypad almost faster than a keyboard) that says something to the effect of:
"You fucked up, again. I never bother any of your "friends", regardless of whether I know for sure that they are fucking you. I don't belong to you."
Actually, that may be almost exactly what I sent.
Anyway, she tells me the next day that what she said to Amy was completely different: "Nathan is a good friend, and I think you're cool and I hope we can be friends, etc."
So two women are giving me completely opposite stories and I have to decide who to trust more: the woman who is making my life miserable every other day, or the woman who I don't know very well except for a severe avoidance of drama? So since then Cristy has been a total bitch about it, calling us both liars and threatening to kick Amy's ass, calling her fat, all that dumb shit. It's been drama since then.
It was funny seeing an old post where she and I got into an actual fight over some hearsay bullshit, and how that event itself shaped the enemies that we are to each other now.
So last night I'm at the Pub after work for the obligatory beer to counter the caffiene I had ingested, and at one point I pass the bar and as I'm passing Cristy says 'fuck you' and flips the bird. I think, okay, whatever, and figure that as she didn't make eye contact as she said it that it wasn't meant for me, but still wondering. I said nothing else to her until today after class, and I told her what had happened, and she immediately goes into bitch mode, utterly denying that she did anything of the kind.
Now, look, this shit is not a big deal to me, my feelings aren't easily hurt, but the fact that she would do something blatantly and then deny it so loudly, is quite disturbing. It really sheds light on who I can trust in this Cristy vs. Amy situation.
Cristy is still bitching and denying, endlessly. Since I've been typing this she has sent me 5 texts, each shrill and guilt-ridden. What's funny is she just got a new phone with a wierd service that chops her texts up into manageable pieces and they come to me all muddled and out of order so that everything she says is nonsense. But it's that even without a cell phone.
One more piece of evidence, just for my own sake; Cristy often used the phrase 'love of my life' in reference to me. How would Amy have known to use it if she WAS merely trying to cause drama and drive a wedge between me and Cristy? Not that such a wedge is necessary.
I can't believe Cristy is such a bitch. I had a conversation with her friend Jennifer last night, Jennifer who was Cristy's best friend for the last year before the summer started, and now Jennier can't stand to be around Cristy for her being such a bitch. I hope the next time I get my heart broken I don't alienate all my friends and act like a cunt.
Just got text messages 6 and 7. Please.