my first love
so i just came home from the jpds purim ball and it was full of memories and well, love. (wow im really corny) but it was just really nice to be there, with all those people who in one way or another helped me grow up or stay little, learn math or fall in love with a story from the torah (lech lecha..i totally screwed up the spelling and yes im that weird) and for better or for worse, become the way i am. now that im at jds i really like it and all the new friends ive made and new experiences ive been able to have because its a bigger school, but tonight i realized that theres just something about that place. i use the term place loosely cuz there wasnt always a building and often the place changed but there were always the teachers, friends, and parents who all taught me a lot of really important things. its weird to think about jpds and all the people that make it up, that in 6th grade it was hard to imagine that i would ever feel that kind of love again. that there was life before i knew about factoring, second base or what the un was, before i knew that a lot of the very important people in my life now, even existed but there was life before all those things and it was vibrant and full of learning, love and growing up. so many people tonight saw me and didnt recognize me or told me i had grown so much and that i looked so pretty and they remembered when i was little and well akward and while since jpds ive definitly grown physically, i realized tonight that theres a lot of things for me that have stayed a lot the same. i realized that my character and value system has stayed pretty much the same since i left and that even though there were a lot of things that i didnt like about the small community it was the small community that really shaped me. i fell in love with it and everything that ever made it up and its weird that even though it doesnt enter my mind all that much its a part of most of what i do and i saw tonight that it seems my love for it isnt gonna fade and in a time (ie teenagerdom) when its hard to trust everyone especially yourself and your feelings i have at least one feeling that i can always trust to stay the same.
(sorry for the emotional weirdness comment on how u dont wanna hear me be mushy)
PS--besides the purim ball this weekend was good times