see a homie you aint seen since back in the day
today after school i had squash practice for a while which was ok, but i feel like im not improving at all. but anyway the ride over there was pretty funny, im really glad that the team has the people on it that it does; i really like all the girls and we have a good time i think. yeah. so after practice i stayed after for a while because my dad was gonna come down and play a match with my uncle, i ended up hittin by myself for a bit and then john came and i rallied with him for like 5 minutes til my dad was ready.. they started playing and i was looking at the both of them.. my dad looks kind of silly next to john theyre both kind of opposite, john is so tall and my dad is real short but either way i guess they look pretty alike. then, woa. woa. this man comes in and says hello and damn, he is hot. i dont even know why, its obvious he was old, he had really nice black hair but there was some grey in there too and holy shit he was so handsome and charming, the kind of guy you like instantly when you meet them. i bet his wife is really pretty. so now i just realized that im rambling about some hot old guy but really he was goodlooking and had a great body, his legs were a little bit too hairy for me but hey its all good. but he looked just like this kid i know and i dont know the kids last name so im gona have to figure out if theyre related. wow i think i could go on for a long time about this man. but ill stop. but maybe well get married sometime cause hes just so cute.
so i dont have a fuck you of the day, but if i did, rest assured it would go out to girls. i love all my friends, but wow. girls are bitchy like woa. sometimes not even necessarily outright. i was doing some thinking about it this morning after having a chat in the library and its very interesting to me because i came to the conclusion after thinking for a little while, that those friends that you have that aren't your closest friends are sometimes the nicest, and talk about you the least. though i am afraid of what people say when im not around, sometimes i just wish people, probably more some than others, would just tell me if they had something to say about me. honestly, it would make things so much easier. * but back to the topic, i wonder why that is, does getting to know someone on a better and more personal level make them an easier target to talk or bitch about? maybe it's just that you know their faults and what really bugs or annoys you about them but i just figured it was odd that the "good friends" you have that you dont hang out with on a regular basis seem to be easier to get along with sometimes, or just that there are less problems between you and them. again, i guess with knowing more about your best friends and spending more time with them is the reason for this. maybe my argument isn't really going anywhere. but this also i think can be compared to boys; im not saying that they don't have deep relationships with friends at all at all at all, but i think maybe boys have less close friends and more "good friends" so its easier for them to have less drama and problems, most boys usually have one or two friends theyve been with since like 1st grade and more aquaintances/friends they chill with on the weekends or wherever. maybe i dont make sense but it's all making sense to me in my head right now so its alll good. also, i realize that this paragraph began as an angry one, with the use of the word fuck and all, but now it's not so much angry as it is contemplative. i think it's just because im in a good mood today. that mr red face they deem cynical though doesn't seem to happy, maybe i should have chose a different one. ah well.
*sidenote- according to some random magazine i read, some odd like 90 percent of the time people say honestly, the statement following it, is usually untrue or a lie. just something to think about. not that i was lying. ok now i think im just being confusing.
back to my ponderings of the day, another one was from english class. we talk so much about naturalism and realism and how people are a product of their environment. and when i started to think about all my friends, it's so true. despite not knowing tons about their parents, or knowing them on a real personal level, haha that sounds funny in regard to parents, anyway, i dont know a lot about some of my friend's parents, but from what i do, they are so much alike. their personalities, the things that they say and do. its crazy. and that being said, i can't decide whether or not i like that idea with me- am i a lot like my parents? in some ways i guess it'd be good, but everyone knows that theres some things their parents do or say or act like that you're like "oh i would neeeever be like that or do that or say that to my kid". yeah. well just that i guess.
once again, vaya con dios.
ps. politics suck
so i dont have a fuck you of the day, but if i did, rest assured it would go out to girls. i love all my friends, but wow. girls are bitchy like woa. sometimes not even necessarily outright. i was doing some thinking about it this morning after having a chat in the library and its very interesting to me because i came to the conclusion after thinking for a little while, that those friends that you have that aren't your closest friends are sometimes the nicest, and talk about you the least. though i am afraid of what people say when im not around, sometimes i just wish people, probably more some than others, would just tell me if they had something to say about me. honestly, it would make things so much easier. * but back to the topic, i wonder why that is, does getting to know someone on a better and more personal level make them an easier target to talk or bitch about? maybe it's just that you know their faults and what really bugs or annoys you about them but i just figured it was odd that the "good friends" you have that you dont hang out with on a regular basis seem to be easier to get along with sometimes, or just that there are less problems between you and them. again, i guess with knowing more about your best friends and spending more time with them is the reason for this. maybe my argument isn't really going anywhere. but this also i think can be compared to boys; im not saying that they don't have deep relationships with friends at all at all at all, but i think maybe boys have less close friends and more "good friends" so its easier for them to have less drama and problems, most boys usually have one or two friends theyve been with since like 1st grade and more aquaintances/friends they chill with on the weekends or wherever. maybe i dont make sense but it's all making sense to me in my head right now so its alll good. also, i realize that this paragraph began as an angry one, with the use of the word fuck and all, but now it's not so much angry as it is contemplative. i think it's just because im in a good mood today. that mr red face they deem cynical though doesn't seem to happy, maybe i should have chose a different one. ah well.
*sidenote- according to some random magazine i read, some odd like 90 percent of the time people say honestly, the statement following it, is usually untrue or a lie. just something to think about. not that i was lying. ok now i think im just being confusing.
back to my ponderings of the day, another one was from english class. we talk so much about naturalism and realism and how people are a product of their environment. and when i started to think about all my friends, it's so true. despite not knowing tons about their parents, or knowing them on a real personal level, haha that sounds funny in regard to parents, anyway, i dont know a lot about some of my friend's parents, but from what i do, they are so much alike. their personalities, the things that they say and do. its crazy. and that being said, i can't decide whether or not i like that idea with me- am i a lot like my parents? in some ways i guess it'd be good, but everyone knows that theres some things their parents do or say or act like that you're like "oh i would neeeever be like that or do that or say that to my kid". yeah. well just that i guess.
once again, vaya con dios.
ps. politics suck