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hahah.. aanyway its late and i really should be going to bed right now. the passed 3 weeks have been like a blurr of travelling and fun and crazyness. elisa's going home tomorrow and i actually legit broke down over it this afternoon. i just really dont want to see her leave. we've had an incredible 6 weeks together, longest time ive spent with anyone, even camp, and ive loved every second of it. im really going to miss having her around.
i saw ragtime, which of course, was incredible. as if i expected it to be anything less than spectacular.. so much talent. great job girls. yesterday i went into harvard sq with some of my wonderful pals who i havent seen in sooo long. we had dinner at fire and ice and it was just a great time. we had the coolest waiter. i think elisa was a little freaked out by us but what you can do. we all had fun sharing stories about our summers and eating platefulls of sauteed food.
theres still a lot of summer left, too. this week im just going to hang out and go to drivers ed and then sunday is fire island. i really miss it there. im kind of sad because my dad may not be coming this year. well its not that hes not coming that im upset about, its why. my dad came in my room and told me yesterday that my grandpa has colon cancer. it makes it seem so real actually typing this. i've never had anyone close to me die or be sick. i dont think i know what it feels like to go thru something like that, a loss. my parents know i worry so much and i could tell my dad was trying to sugarcoat it a little by saying that the surgery is almost always successful and the doctor just performed the operation on a 101 year old man so the chances are good but i could still tell he was hurting and worried when he told me. i feel like i dont know what to feel. how do you handle something like this? my dads probably going to connecticut while we're in fire island and i dont want to let myself have fun. maybe its not as serious as it sounds. i just hope everythings okay. wow could that have been anymore depressing.. i just wanted to type this out, for me. goodnight.
much love,
allie