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In today's society a person will do almost anything to be noticed. Dye their hair, wear close to nothing, or even do drugs just to get noticed. But why is there this need to get attention. What happened oh so long ago that makes one strive to be noticed. Could it be from neglect during childhood? Or a countless number of bad relationships? who knows. Speaking of bad relationships, is there ever that right one. The one guy who makes you fall head or feet or whatever the saying is. I mean is there really that one person out there for everyone? Or is that whatcoach tote? Its hard t we keep telling ourselves in order to remain sane. Is it possible to ever love a man as much as that new designer o imagine. I have given up on love. Not because I don't believe that people have fallen in love, but because I don't think I ever can. Eventually, everyone gets married not because they love the other person, but because of financial security. Or because all their friends are. And is it so bad not be loved. I mean does a life have to be determined by how many other lives are in it? I just don't know. How can I ever expect a man to be acceptable of all my flaws when I know I will not accept theirs. Am I being to critical. I mean how picky is too picky? Heartbreak. Is the one word that scares the shit out of me. It really does. My heart is the one thing that if I could keep the locks and chains on forever they would be. I hate getting hurt especially by guys. Its the worst feeling ever. And when is a good solid try enough.