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for the first time in a long time i can honestly say im happy with no strings attached, just happy. i spent the weekend(well saturday) with john. we watched edward scissorhands and snl with sean and mark. i think i really really like him. to be honest i was angry at him the day before for me having to babysit his drunkness. but thru everything we have been thru, me telling off mike boyton and springfest night. the night in which we had sex for the first time. the night which we have not mentioned, but it happened. the night his ex gf texted him and called him. but despite it all in his arms i feel so safe and happy. he makes me giggle from the inside out. and maybe just maybe i have fallen too quickly. and maybe just maybe he doesnt feel this way. but i know that maybe just maybe he likes me as much as i like him. and we will get thru this summer. we may not see each other and it may be hard and i might miss him alot alot, but i know that when we get back it will all work out. despite whatever happens this summer i can just feel it. we have something and its real and its scary and i wish we didnt bc it would make my life easier, but u cant live your life denying yourself something bc its scary or else you are not actually living. either way i have about two weeks left of school. not looking forward to the summer b/c im going to miss my friends sooooooooo much but i know it will fly by and ill be back soon enough.