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I am going to process this issue I have with a "friend" by banging it out on the keyboard...
So I meet this lady via belly dance troupe/class, and she and I hit it off kinda by being "Fat-ivists." Out of everyone in class, she is the person that was the most thoughtful and seemed loyal as well. Fast Fwd to Sept. 2013... she talks about her impending sexual liberation then proceeds to ask me if I would "play" with her, and tells me she thinks I am "hot." Before we spoke any further about her proposition, I said I was flattered and informed her that I had to ask my husband (we had discussed this at length before since I am attracted to both men and women). He said he was okay with it, and I told her that. She then misinterpreted his response and never really addressed the subject again. She would randomly say flirty things to me, but never got into real discussion of logistics and/or rules. Through this, another girl in the troupe/class got married and did not invite the three of us that one might deem "fat." I was fairly upset about it, and she did not seemed as bothered by it until the possible fat issue entered into the equation. Anyway... it feels like she has dumped me even as just a friend, and it hurts. I have tried continuing texting her, but I get little to no response. Tired of feeling like people treat me like shit. Sad thing about it all is that I continue to think about and love people that treat me like shit or show no interest in friendship even on a superficial level. I know people have lives, but to go from one end of the spectrum to the other is confusing and tiring. I hate people anymore.
So I meet this lady via belly dance troupe/class, and she and I hit it off kinda by being "Fat-ivists." Out of everyone in class, she is the person that was the most thoughtful and seemed loyal as well. Fast Fwd to Sept. 2013... she talks about her impending sexual liberation then proceeds to ask me if I would "play" with her, and tells me she thinks I am "hot." Before we spoke any further about her proposition, I said I was flattered and informed her that I had to ask my husband (we had discussed this at length before since I am attracted to both men and women). He said he was okay with it, and I told her that. She then misinterpreted his response and never really addressed the subject again. She would randomly say flirty things to me, but never got into real discussion of logistics and/or rules. Through this, another girl in the troupe/class got married and did not invite the three of us that one might deem "fat." I was fairly upset about it, and she did not seemed as bothered by it until the possible fat issue entered into the equation. Anyway... it feels like she has dumped me even as just a friend, and it hurts. I have tried continuing texting her, but I get little to no response. Tired of feeling like people treat me like shit. Sad thing about it all is that I continue to think about and love people that treat me like shit or show no interest in friendship even on a superficial level. I know people have lives, but to go from one end of the spectrum to the other is confusing and tiring. I hate people anymore.