life in reality
i am the most insecure person i know... right now i realized that i have no reason to live... why live knowing that you can never be happy with yourself... honestly i can never be happy. i thought that finding someone to be with would do it. but in the end it was realized that it couldnt... i am not being emo or anything... but i have found no reason to live... i hate life... and i hate my family... they dont appreciate me... no one does... and my insecurities make this possible... no one understands that i will always be there for them... always... i fucking care... but when people try to care about me... i feel fucking stupid... because i am a waste... i am thankful for all the good things that have happened.... like all the people that have impacted me... but honestly i dont want to live anymore in a world where theres prejudice and dislike... i dont want to live anymore... i love my friends... but this is retarded.. everyone i grow to love leaves me in the end... so why not finalize this by me leaving everyone that loves me... i tried to make a difference and make everyone happy... but no one understand.... they have it all... as do i... i dont know... i just feel like my feelings are empty on the inside...