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May 03, 2009 20:35

It's gotten to be that way
(going, going, gone)
I'm scared but I'm okay
(going, going, gone)
There's nowhere to move on
There's nowhere to move on

I don't feel like me.
I don't feel myself.

It's like watching a movie.
It's like watching this crazy weird movie..
It's all in black and white with no sound.
Just pictures
And you're a character...
And you're making each move...
But you don't feel it.
It's just happening all around you.

Still hooked on cellophane
Hanging round the mall and all
Each penny numbs the pain
Sends you gently for the fall.

Time races by
But I don't feel it.
It feels as though everything is standing  still.
I'm watching everything slowly crumble
But I don't feel it.
I don't let myself feel a thing.

I do nothing to stop it.
I do nothing ...
Yet things get worse and worse.

If I am lost for a day, try to find me
But if I don't come back, then I won't look behind me.
All the things that I thought were so easy
Just got harder and harder each day.

And no one will listen.
because I keep talking.
I try to listen and be a good person.
But no one seems to see that... ever

I truly am a shitty person.
Through and through.
all this time I though I was someone people would miss.

I dreamed I was dying; as I so often do
And when I awoke I was sure it was true
I ran to the window; threw my head to the sky
And said whoever is up there,please don't let me die
But I can't live forever,I can't always be
One day I'll be sand on a beach by a sea.

"stfu."
that's the advice I need.
"i wish she would just die"
that's the advice I get...
the real stuff.

"You're a sensitive bitch...all the time"
"You're pathetic"

That's close enough for me.
Nothing matters
When after it's all done...
After the film stops rolling
YOU don't truly matter..

Going, Going, Gone.
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