I do really stupid things
Once again my impulsivity and need for immediate gratification has gotten me in trouble. I'm just playing grown-up. I don't have the slightest idea how to take care of myself, and I no longer want to. I want a hug. I want my mom. I want everything to be okay and to feel content.
I need a meds adjustment, everything is getting too overwhelming; it's like a black curtain is dropping over me again and I can't function. But right now I don't have the money to pay for the appointment, I still owe her for my last visit. Who says money can't buy happiness? I guess I'll just have to up the dosage myself.
I purged blood the other night but because it wasn't dark in color I wasn't at all alarmed and kept right on going like a champ. I need help.
I feel so utterly alone here. I want my support system to be here with me. I'm too empty without them.
I need a meds adjustment, everything is getting too overwhelming; it's like a black curtain is dropping over me again and I can't function. But right now I don't have the money to pay for the appointment, I still owe her for my last visit. Who says money can't buy happiness? I guess I'll just have to up the dosage myself.
I purged blood the other night but because it wasn't dark in color I wasn't at all alarmed and kept right on going like a champ. I need help.
I feel so utterly alone here. I want my support system to be here with me. I'm too empty without them.