The Belly Saga: Part 1
Since February of this year, I've become aware that I've put on a little extra weight living away. When I look back, shopping bags filled with nothing but Galaxy and Doritos, and the tendency to eat as many as two microwave meals in one day, it's not hard to see why, and I can only blame myself. However, the food baby I'd been growing always did seem far too large. At one point it was a full blown pregnancy scare that fizzled out in time, but the size of my ab that had caused this still remained.
And it's still here today, and so many things feel so off about it (except for my body. That FEELS as if nothing was wrong...). Firstly, I've lost 4 of my goal 11 kgs, and all my jeans fit better (implying weight loss for sure), but this mysterious bulge remains the same. Secondly, my abs are actually nicely toned, for some reason. I guess I have a tendency to tone up really well if I exercise at all. This also implies that there's little fat to be lost outside my ab muscles. For many months I assumed it was fat under the muscle, but surely that would've at least STARTED to shift by now. And anyway, I never gain weight like this. It all goes up top and down below before even thinking about collecting on my waist.
Not to mention that when I lie down, the bulge sticks out still. I decided a couple of weeks ago that this couldn't be normal.
I never for a moment thought this was unique to me, and hours of googling proved me correct. So many people who claim to be slim with a belly that sticks out from here to high heaven that can only be hidden, in the short term, by sucking it in. And have I spent so much of the last half a year doing that... So many theories, at one point I assumed it to be a protein deficiency. But even the position alone bothers me. The bulge has an actual peak. Just below the navel, if seen in profile. It's also rather rounded. It doesn't feel fluid or fatty. More than anything else now, I suspect fibroids. Considering how bad my periods were before the pill (8 days with cramps that could last for 5 of these), and the very position, this makes sense.
I know that no matter what I do about it now, it will all be too late for when I return to Exeter this Saturday, but something needs to be done as soon as possible. I'm seeing the doctor tomorrow, who will either think I'm having a laugh, or will be able to shed some light on this rather embarassing situation.
And it's still here today, and so many things feel so off about it (except for my body. That FEELS as if nothing was wrong...). Firstly, I've lost 4 of my goal 11 kgs, and all my jeans fit better (implying weight loss for sure), but this mysterious bulge remains the same. Secondly, my abs are actually nicely toned, for some reason. I guess I have a tendency to tone up really well if I exercise at all. This also implies that there's little fat to be lost outside my ab muscles. For many months I assumed it was fat under the muscle, but surely that would've at least STARTED to shift by now. And anyway, I never gain weight like this. It all goes up top and down below before even thinking about collecting on my waist.
Not to mention that when I lie down, the bulge sticks out still. I decided a couple of weeks ago that this couldn't be normal.
I never for a moment thought this was unique to me, and hours of googling proved me correct. So many people who claim to be slim with a belly that sticks out from here to high heaven that can only be hidden, in the short term, by sucking it in. And have I spent so much of the last half a year doing that... So many theories, at one point I assumed it to be a protein deficiency. But even the position alone bothers me. The bulge has an actual peak. Just below the navel, if seen in profile. It's also rather rounded. It doesn't feel fluid or fatty. More than anything else now, I suspect fibroids. Considering how bad my periods were before the pill (8 days with cramps that could last for 5 of these), and the very position, this makes sense.
I know that no matter what I do about it now, it will all be too late for when I return to Exeter this Saturday, but something needs to be done as soon as possible. I'm seeing the doctor tomorrow, who will either think I'm having a laugh, or will be able to shed some light on this rather embarassing situation.