MY LIFE
I have made a decicion about my life and I am not afraid anymore. I have given myself a year to make my dreams of being free real. I no longer fear him. I am going to move and start my life anew. I have to make sure that my children are safe. I know that he will be mad and hurt when I leave, but there is nothing I can do about that. He will never change. I am no longer going to pretend that he will. Things are realy confusing for me right now. I know what I have to do so I am going to do it. The only proplem that I am having is how do I tell everyone do I tell them now and worry that they mite tell him or do I wate untill right before I leave? I guess that I will fugure that out in the end. The other problem that I am having is what do I tell my daughter she loves daddy todd and he has never done anything to hurt her. What do I tell her? I guess I will have to fuigure that out on my own too. I mean shit how hard could it be. What do I tell the man I love? I guess that in the end it will not matter anyway because he dose not love me in return. My life is goign to chang forever and I hope that it is for the better.