Today was amazing
It's hard to find a place to start for this entry, since the beginning is.. difficult to really discern. But I'll try. Woke up after getting jack and/or shit for sleep the night before, went to work uber tired and found there to be nothing but busy work that the higher ups conjured out of literally nowhere for us to do. Well.. not all of us, but the late shift and select others at least. I tried to put up with it, but I'm none too fond of busy work, since I value the fuck out of my free time. In fact, I was helping a couple of co-workers to find certain boxes, and as they sifted through line of them, I simply laid down on top of another row and nearly fell asleep. Hey, I don't want to hear *any*thing about bad work ethic, okay? I did a damn good job on Monday, and there seriously wasn't any work to do. They had me doing bullshit, no question about it. In any case, I was taken off that assignment to help out with online orders (mostly because the job didn't benefit at all by having any more than two or so people on it. Extra people would end up doing nothing, or getting in the way) but once I began, I was informed that there were very few of those to be done, and no help was needed. I tell this to my manager, and she asks if I would like to go home. Guess my answer. Now, when I reported back to the people doing online orders (Russ and Jaime, very good friends of mine, no doubt everyone remembers Jaime) Russ asked me to stay so both he and Jaime could leave early too, once they were finished. Tried to find my manager to tell her the new plan, but couldn't, so Russ *let me go home* and even encouraged it. I felt bad for leaving them there :\ But I did it after apologizing to Russ. Thanks to him letting me go, I got to sit at home with some peace and quiet, lovely weather, and a comfy bed on which to take a nap (which I *rarely* take). Woke up after a couple hours, the TV still playing some good cartoons. So I grabbed some pizza, sat down and relaxed whilst vegetating.
I'mma stop there, no more little details, they're sort of pointless now that I stop and think about it. For some reason, everything came together today to work out in my favor. Just got lucky, I imagine, and it ended up making me feel kickass. Like one morning a few years back when I woke up to get together with some friends to head for A-Kon. I've been saying it for a while now.. but life is good, even when I'm down. It sucks when the little things compound and make you feel bad, but when they come together on your side, it's a feeling you won't forget, and you should *cherish* it when it comes around. Pay attention to that, and I'm going to reiterate it because it bears reiteration. CHERISH IT WHEN IT COMES AROUND. Who knows how often you're going to get that in the future? Who says you'll be in a position to appreciate it then? You might never be able to really experience it the way you can *right now*, because you'll have new bonds and new scars, and new reasons for living. Tell the person you love that you love them the next chance you get, and when you do, put your heart into it, let it tint your voice and which words you use to say it. Or even better, put some action behind it, do something for them, and put your heart into *that* too. You might not be inspired to do it all the time, and that's normal, no worries.. hopefully they'll understand that too.
There's no way I could be living the life I have right now if it wasn't for you guys. There's no way I could be as strong as I am now, or even be able to hold a candle to how happy you've made me, if you hadn't been there for me. I love you all, every last one of you, I really do.
I'mma stop there, no more little details, they're sort of pointless now that I stop and think about it. For some reason, everything came together today to work out in my favor. Just got lucky, I imagine, and it ended up making me feel kickass. Like one morning a few years back when I woke up to get together with some friends to head for A-Kon. I've been saying it for a while now.. but life is good, even when I'm down. It sucks when the little things compound and make you feel bad, but when they come together on your side, it's a feeling you won't forget, and you should *cherish* it when it comes around. Pay attention to that, and I'm going to reiterate it because it bears reiteration. CHERISH IT WHEN IT COMES AROUND. Who knows how often you're going to get that in the future? Who says you'll be in a position to appreciate it then? You might never be able to really experience it the way you can *right now*, because you'll have new bonds and new scars, and new reasons for living. Tell the person you love that you love them the next chance you get, and when you do, put your heart into it, let it tint your voice and which words you use to say it. Or even better, put some action behind it, do something for them, and put your heart into *that* too. You might not be inspired to do it all the time, and that's normal, no worries.. hopefully they'll understand that too.
There's no way I could be living the life I have right now if it wasn't for you guys. There's no way I could be as strong as I am now, or even be able to hold a candle to how happy you've made me, if you hadn't been there for me. I love you all, every last one of you, I really do.