hard times
So, im having some trouble trying to juggle everything that i have to deal with right now. At the moment i am feeling very overwhelmed and i just dont really know what to do...
1. Soccer sunday, monday, and wednesday for now but soon it will conquer my saturdays and entire weekends
2. Im going up north this weekend, and next weekend i am babysitting friday night and then again on saturday overnight, and the next two weekends after that i have soccer tournaments.
3. I am trying really hard to make everyone else happy that i cant seem to find time to have any real fun like i used to.
The big ones...
4. I feel like i am loosing all my friends, because of a guy, and it really sucks! I always told myself that i didnt want to be one of those girls that spends all her time with her boyfriend and never with her girlfriends but that is exactly what has happened to me and i dont know if things will ever be the same. i know that once kyle leaves that i will see my friends everyday but i just dont want them to think that "oh yeah now she has time for us" because i really miss all of them. Hanging out, laughing, just having fun! i miss it so much!!!
5. Kyle is leaving for school soon and i wont get to see him very often. But maybe that is a good thing....
+i have so many wonderful friends and i really dont want to loose them. i love all of you sooo much and i dont know what i would do without any of you! if anyone has any feelings about me, or our friendship, or just anything you want to say, i want you to be openly honest because starting tonight, i am going to be here for all of you, no matter what- i am ending the simple online chats, and casual hellos! If anyone will forgive me for being such a shitty friend? i promise that i will be here for all of you whenever you need me!+