The seeds of love have taken hold, and if we won't burn together, I'll burn alone
There's always a moment where you find yourself thinking, "I cant do this, I cant give into this, not again." This summer i found an individual that makes me feel whole. Kissing him makes me feel the most alive ive ever felt, high without even being high. Ive been through hell and back since that July night in waretown and quite frankly its all lead up to the moments im experiencing now and in one moment you can choose to make everything new. Did you ever ask yourself maybe, all this is being put upon me, the hurt, the tears, the emptiness to really appreciate the outcome? Ive always been an optimist and ill never compromise for anyone. Sometimes the timing, the place, the people arent right, perfect person..wrong time. Ill be damned if we dont find that perfect time. People meet for a reason, its something i like to call fate, and when you know someones meant to have a permanent place with an immence impact in your life rather than a meaningless minute and dissapearing into the background, you fight for it. As stated in my last entry the most beautiful words that have ever been spoken to me were said the other night..."when i open my eyes after we kiss, you always have the same look to you.. it never changes, and your still just as beautiful as the first time i met you." Ill never forget those words, ill never forget the place, the time, what we were doing why we were there.
I bought a 80$ necklace today from metro park. I also bought a vest from Guess.
Last night, Sarahs was so much fun. Kev and I have way too much fun. I fucking love petey and dato as well. I love everyone coming into my life this year, 2007 should be fucking fun. Sarahs seriously nothing how i thought she was back in the krome days circa 02 03. Shes such a warm hearted caring individual and i really love her. She I and lauren have way too much fun together. Ive also become pretttty close with alli. Her as well, never really knew what to expect but shes such a genuine girl and i really love her.
I left and went to Rays, i got lost on the way to his house so i called him and made him stay on the phone with me and give me step by step directions aha. I got there and he told me i wasnt aloud to keep him up, 4 hours later, 1 hour late to work and an awoken asian we went to get breakfast. I MADE ray buy a choppers scratch off thinking it would be good luck cause of workingclass, haha fuck no. I ruined rays life haha only not. I bought him a few things today also.
I got my tattoo finished and im starting my ribs soon. Theyre going to hurt like hell but im a man, haha, and i can do it. I dont have any pictures right now but it was done at darkstar so you could only imagine how phenomonal it looks. Elise goes to finish her arm tomorrow and im so excited for her.Its going to look so fucking good i cant even take it.
Well i have nothing to complain about. Im starting school for journalism as you could tell with some entries i have every now and then haha. I work, i make money, and im living responsible and good. Who woulda thought ray and i work hah i said it this morning as i was leaving cause we both had work. I dont really know whats going to happen, i dont really know how everythings going to turn out but thats one of the great pleasures of life, you never really know. You have to stay on the edge of your seat with antipcipation, awaiting the next moment questioning its negitivity or positivity. Untill next time ladies and gentlemen... have a great fucking life.
ALSO, i feel i was a bit too brash in my last entry. Zachs right, i wont go down to your level, thats like lower than low.