April 20, 2005
I am so on the brink of crying....u know how ur throat tightens, and then ur eyes get blurry? yeah...thats how i feel right now! today was mediocre i guess...fun time at lunch, dance was ok, math was ok...i hate that class...why am i so bad in it. Then history...the test went bad...and spanish was unbearable. Ok....i take the good wiht the bad. After school i went to dance with mrs Gallo because she was helping me wiht my coreography for the play. SO mom picks me up, and we are in the car.
"o mom...guess what???!!! U know how i think that i have been doing worse in spanish (ive been getting an A-), well, i got a 95% on my spanish test"
"thats's good sweety."
"yeah, and i have some bad news tho."
"what?"
"I got an 80% onmmy math test."
(she screams this whole thing)
"What? Alexandra that is unacceptable. Why is it that every time that u study wiht people, u do worse on a test than u expected??!!! Thats absolute Bullshit! Fuck the social time, Fuck the studying in groups...obviously it doesnt do that much to help u. Its not worth all of the fucking enerygy that i especially have to put into it. Ok, ive tried to be nice, but u just keep ficking wiht me. DO i look like an idiot? Who the fucck do u take me for. Just cut the bullshit, and buckle down and study. Obviously u are not getting As becasue u dont study or try nearly enouf. If u dont have a social life, WHO THE FUCK CARES??? I sure as hell dont! U have the rest of ur GOd damned life to have a social life. SO its either one or the other. What do u want, to get into a good school, or have to open your legs for money?? u tell me..ill drop this play that ur in in a heart beat. But i will not allow ur GPA to slip even further. Ive said that B+s in math were ok, i didnt complain when u got ur report card. But ur GPA did slip from a 4.0 to a what now?
(remember, this whole time she is SCREAMING at me...nothing is spoken.)
"umm...my cumulative GPA is now a 3.993 from a 4.0"
"yeah ok, and what was this semester's GPA... 3.___ what?"
""this past semester? 3.85 something."
"no its lower than that.Its like a 3.6 or 3.7"
"no it isnt...go check right now...go check."
"o, well thats not bad, but if it slips to a 3.7, ur done...what did u get on the test? a 70?"
"No, i got an 80%."
"o...well thats ok...sorry."
"u mean to tell me that uve been bitching at me for the past 6 minutes making me feel like dogshit and now u notice that its not that bad and ur just 'sorry'?"
"At least i said sorry, u are lucky that u got that."
Yeah...thats why i am fucking pissed off. that is why. My mom is soooo...UGH. I cant help but feel annoyed. I just want to cry...u have no clue. I have had the same convo with my mom a thousand times. She always says im wrong, she always says that whatever i say is bullshit and that i am trying to make her out to be stupid. She always says that i have no need for a fucking social life becasue she never did as a child becasue her parents never let her have one and how smart she is/ was. WEll guess what BITCH???? maybe if ur parents let u have a social life, u wouldnt be the pent up, castrating banchee that u are today. Hmmmm y dont u have a social life now? Becuase u are so dominating that no one wants to be around ur sorry ass! maybe that's why??? hmmmmmm?
"o mom...guess what???!!! U know how i think that i have been doing worse in spanish (ive been getting an A-), well, i got a 95% on my spanish test"
"thats's good sweety."
"yeah, and i have some bad news tho."
"what?"
"I got an 80% onmmy math test."
(she screams this whole thing)
"What? Alexandra that is unacceptable. Why is it that every time that u study wiht people, u do worse on a test than u expected??!!! Thats absolute Bullshit! Fuck the social time, Fuck the studying in groups...obviously it doesnt do that much to help u. Its not worth all of the fucking enerygy that i especially have to put into it. Ok, ive tried to be nice, but u just keep ficking wiht me. DO i look like an idiot? Who the fucck do u take me for. Just cut the bullshit, and buckle down and study. Obviously u are not getting As becasue u dont study or try nearly enouf. If u dont have a social life, WHO THE FUCK CARES??? I sure as hell dont! U have the rest of ur GOd damned life to have a social life. SO its either one or the other. What do u want, to get into a good school, or have to open your legs for money?? u tell me..ill drop this play that ur in in a heart beat. But i will not allow ur GPA to slip even further. Ive said that B+s in math were ok, i didnt complain when u got ur report card. But ur GPA did slip from a 4.0 to a what now?
(remember, this whole time she is SCREAMING at me...nothing is spoken.)
"umm...my cumulative GPA is now a 3.993 from a 4.0"
"yeah ok, and what was this semester's GPA... 3.___ what?"
""this past semester? 3.85 something."
"no its lower than that.Its like a 3.6 or 3.7"
"no it isnt...go check right now...go check."
"o, well thats not bad, but if it slips to a 3.7, ur done...what did u get on the test? a 70?"
"No, i got an 80%."
"o...well thats ok...sorry."
"u mean to tell me that uve been bitching at me for the past 6 minutes making me feel like dogshit and now u notice that its not that bad and ur just 'sorry'?"
"At least i said sorry, u are lucky that u got that."
Yeah...thats why i am fucking pissed off. that is why. My mom is soooo...UGH. I cant help but feel annoyed. I just want to cry...u have no clue. I have had the same convo with my mom a thousand times. She always says im wrong, she always says that whatever i say is bullshit and that i am trying to make her out to be stupid. She always says that i have no need for a fucking social life becasue she never did as a child becasue her parents never let her have one and how smart she is/ was. WEll guess what BITCH???? maybe if ur parents let u have a social life, u wouldnt be the pent up, castrating banchee that u are today. Hmmmm y dont u have a social life now? Becuase u are so dominating that no one wants to be around ur sorry ass! maybe that's why??? hmmmmmm?