update.
I had the weirdest dream last night. to come to think of it, i have been having a lot of weird dreams lately.
Last night i had a dream i was at a party, it was the usual thing, hang out for a while and be home early, around midnight-1 oclock. or thats what i thought. but then i dreamt that somehow, i ended up with bill, and he drove me home, and when i got home it was real dark out, and my parents were waiting outside for me. i asked why they were outside and my dad just started yelling, "YOU DIDNT COME HOME AT ALL LAST NIGHT, AND NOW YOU COME HOME AT 4:30AM"....but i didnt remember anything. i was on some sort of drug i think, and it just boggled my mind in my sleep, like where was i, who was i with, what happened to me, what drugs did i take, why did bill not tell me that it was that late and that i was fucked up? then i kissed him in front of my dad, and my dad just started punching him, and he said "i love your daughter, i have for years" or some random thing like that. it was a REALLY weird dream. i dont know why i dreamt about him. but when i woke up, i felt really really out of it, like i couldnt remember anything, and like i really was on drugs. maybe it was just from waking up from a deep sleep but it was just a really weird feeling, i dont know. i didnt like it though.
i feel like i should be doing more with my life. SOMETHING, or ANYTHING. i am finishing up hugh school...i am going to college in january of 07, i am going to be an X-ray technition (i should probably learn how to spell my profession) and a bartender. but for now...i drink my life away, work when i am scheduled...make a lil money....and i like to enjoy my life. maybe thats what i am supposed to be doing at this age, but i feel like i should be doing SOMETHING more productive.
Valentines day is coming up and i dont have a valentine...its weird...this is the first year that i havent had one since it has mattered,you know what i mean. oh and great, i am working in Floral at shaws from 11-7 on valentines day, so im going to see all these cute boys buying roses and wrapping them up pretty for all these lucky girls with nice boyfriends. but now that i think of it....im not sure if that life is for me anyways. we will see.
thats all for now. maybe i will start updating regularly again.
Last night i had a dream i was at a party, it was the usual thing, hang out for a while and be home early, around midnight-1 oclock. or thats what i thought. but then i dreamt that somehow, i ended up with bill, and he drove me home, and when i got home it was real dark out, and my parents were waiting outside for me. i asked why they were outside and my dad just started yelling, "YOU DIDNT COME HOME AT ALL LAST NIGHT, AND NOW YOU COME HOME AT 4:30AM"....but i didnt remember anything. i was on some sort of drug i think, and it just boggled my mind in my sleep, like where was i, who was i with, what happened to me, what drugs did i take, why did bill not tell me that it was that late and that i was fucked up? then i kissed him in front of my dad, and my dad just started punching him, and he said "i love your daughter, i have for years" or some random thing like that. it was a REALLY weird dream. i dont know why i dreamt about him. but when i woke up, i felt really really out of it, like i couldnt remember anything, and like i really was on drugs. maybe it was just from waking up from a deep sleep but it was just a really weird feeling, i dont know. i didnt like it though.
i feel like i should be doing more with my life. SOMETHING, or ANYTHING. i am finishing up hugh school...i am going to college in january of 07, i am going to be an X-ray technition (i should probably learn how to spell my profession) and a bartender. but for now...i drink my life away, work when i am scheduled...make a lil money....and i like to enjoy my life. maybe thats what i am supposed to be doing at this age, but i feel like i should be doing SOMETHING more productive.
Valentines day is coming up and i dont have a valentine...its weird...this is the first year that i havent had one since it has mattered,you know what i mean. oh and great, i am working in Floral at shaws from 11-7 on valentines day, so im going to see all these cute boys buying roses and wrapping them up pretty for all these lucky girls with nice boyfriends. but now that i think of it....im not sure if that life is for me anyways. we will see.
thats all for now. maybe i will start updating regularly again.