how i get by.
I hate how we never got our chance to see what we could've been. I hate how I know I'm not over you and how I pretend to be. I hate how you've totally moved on and you have no idea that I haven't. I would do anything to rewind-back to a exactly year ago, when it was all just starting, when it was all just so hopeful and promising.
I like to pretend that everything in my world is completely fine. Because if everyone else thinks that you're fine, sometimes you forget for a while that you're not. I keep telling myself everyday that i'm my own person, that i complete me. so i get up everyday, suck it up, study hard and work out and diet enough to lose weight, encourage people, give advice and just try to have some superficial fun. Thinking that if i accomplish all these and i'll be fine and that everything will be okay. and really, despite what i really feel it doesn't matter, because it's how i get by. and its working...for now.
this too shall pass....maybe, maybe not for a long time, maybe never?
I like to pretend that everything in my world is completely fine. Because if everyone else thinks that you're fine, sometimes you forget for a while that you're not. I keep telling myself everyday that i'm my own person, that i complete me. so i get up everyday, suck it up, study hard and work out and diet enough to lose weight, encourage people, give advice and just try to have some superficial fun. Thinking that if i accomplish all these and i'll be fine and that everything will be okay. and really, despite what i really feel it doesn't matter, because it's how i get by. and its working...for now.
this too shall pass....maybe, maybe not for a long time, maybe never?