This is the 4th and final installment of the I'm feeling a little
Desperate... fic that took me one day to write all the other parts and
3 days to write the final part. This has been sitting around and i've
hadnt had time to post it. The last post of this, the 3rd part, was
about 2 weeks ago. Some of this was beta'd by the one and only
shimmelk. She's so awesome.
DISCLAIMER: unfortunately, not happening
Here are parts:
I feel a little Desperate... /
I feel a little Desperate ...too /
I feel a little Desperate... also Either I open the door and pull Nick by the arms and hug him telling
all he'd ever wanted to hear.
Or, I could just let this feeling go and
pretend it was just temporary, then tell Bobbeh there is a naked man
waiting for him and he better take the offer or else I'll put a chain
lock on my door.
"Bobbeh, (I sigh) I think that you need to just leave. You need to sort
out your feelings because you don't really want me. I made a promise to
myself a week ago not to have sex ever again for the rest of my college
year. Nobody knows this but you so at least you know I have some ounce
of feelings for you but they're far from sexual." Bobbeh opened his
mouth about to speak with his eyebrows both raised but I immediately
shushed hip, "You're probably going to ask why I made this promise," He
looked at me then shook his head side to side slowly but I ignored it
and continued because I like to hear myself talk. "I wanted to get with
somebody. He's someone that I thought was way out of my league because
he was smart and mature, two things I am not. I was extremely jealous
and tried to make him as dumb as me by doing stupid things but do you
know what? It only made him smarter. I gave up and now he gave in. I'm
sorry Bobbeh, but you have to go because I'm gonna shag someone right
now and it's not gonna be you."
I turned away from him to open the door but he pushed me against it
pressing his groin into me and his palms against my shoulders. "Alex
please don't do this to me. I really want you right now and right here
in the hall." He forced his hands down my chest as he smelt my hair,
inhaling the cheap shampoo I found in Nick's drawer two days ago. His
fingers lowered and twisted the hairs below my belly until he plunged
into my front. His hands were as hungry as Nick's mouth today at the
park. They wrapped around my cock and pulled and tugged. I was close to
begging him to stop. He softened his grasp and stroked it tenderly with
the tips of his fingers. His head was moving onto my shoulder so that
his few days of not shaving was scratching my face. I wondered if Nick
wondered about me at this moment.
What is he doing right now?
Bobbeh moved his fingers under my cock and slid it up and down then
pushed and applied the most horrid pressure upon my balls. My left hand
came alive and grabbed at his crotch applying the same pain. He pushed
himself off of me and cupped his hurt groin releasing a noise that
sounded of a cry mingling with an angry yell. I spat on the floor
between us and darted a stare. I hoped he was just as mad as I was that
he came between me and Nick right when I was going to confess
everything to him. I creaked the door open and saw Nick dressed up in
his usual attire sneaking out of the window.
"Nick!" I yelled and he turned but instead of falling back in, he was
falling out of the window. I leaped into the air and thought I caught
the end of his sweater feeling completely horrible that I killed
someone but then I heard, "Alex pull me up, Now!" and I realized I
caught him. I saved him! I reeled him back in and he landed on top of
me which I was very much comfortable with but he hastily got up and
moved to his corner of the room.
"So why aren't you shagging him now...Oh right, you made a promise."
"Nick! How'd you know? Were you eavesdropping?"
"Maybe I was and not only was I listening. I was watching. I wondered
what was taking you so long so I looked through the peak hole seeing
your head against the door and his nose in your hair. Bet he was giving
you a nice hand job, wish I could've saved you again?" He wasn't in the
mood I wanted him to be in.
I liked it better when he was naked.
"I was so mad I wanted to get out and leave you. I was going to move
into an apartment 6 months ago but then I saw you walk through those
doors with that Von Bondies shirt with the low cut showing your clear
pale skin. Your weak arms dropped the box you were holding and you
looked at me, groaned like a whiny boy
on his birthday who wanted a skateboard but got a bike instead. I
stayed because I thought you secretly liked me. I thought those sex
calls you had every night was to make me feel so horny for you. I
thought those little tricks you pulled like me seeing you naked when i
walked into the room was an invite but now that I know you actually
love some guy... and don't pretend Kapranos, I heard what you said,
well, I don't want to be in here anymore."
I was so glad that he caught every signal but I was disappointed at this last one.
"No. Nick. When I walked in with that box with my strong arms then
dumped it to the ground I thought you were a bad boy with a disgusting
preppy look on the outside. I came to learn later that you were so
smart and mature. I loved, love, everything about you. I told Bobbeh to
go home and to leave us in peace. Just you and me alone. I'd like to
take a ride on my bike now."
He stepped out slowly from the corner he was in and leaped up to hug
me, wrapping his legs around my waist and his arms around my neck. I
pulled him in tighter and whispered, "Mine or yours?" He answered and I
thrust him onto my bed. He bounced a bit on the springs and pulled his
sweater up over his head. I stopped him before he managed to open the
second button of his shirt. I often imagined undressing him and I felt
a tingle in the deep pit of my stomach. "May I have the honors?" His
eyes looked glossy and he nodded while gulping down a clump of spit.
I placed my hands on his shirt and continued where he left off. With
each button popping open, I felt more and more prepared for what was to
come. I pushed the shirt off of his shoulders while bringing my head
closer to his. Our lips just brushed each other then settled and
aligned perfectly. My tongue was slowly making its way, trying to open
his mouth. He backed his head and talked into my mouth, "I never
frenched before." I widened my eyes at the thought that I never really
knew what he knew how to do and what he didn't.
"Well just let me slip my tongue into your mouth and then you can do
the same to me?" He mouthed the word ‘okay’ and pressed his lips back
onto mine. His lips parted slightly for my tongue to enter and he
pressed in harder, wanting it to go deeper into him. I licked and
tickled his palette and felt around his mouth, marking my territory. I
removed my tongue from his mouth, telling him it was his turn. He
timidly brought his tongue in my mouth, first licking my lips then
moving past my teeth, then dusting my mouth of grown cobwebs from its
retirement from passionate kissing. I released, tilting my head up and
lowered my hands from his upper arms to his belt. He was not shy before
when waltzing around the room bare, but now seemed a little
uncomfortable as I slipped the leather out from the silver buckle, then
undid the button moving on to the zipper. His face blushed when I
pulled them off him, revealing an enormous erection.
"Is that bad?" He asked me looking away in fear if I'd strike him.
"No, I think it's the healthiest thing in the world. It makes me do
this." I slipped off my pants and discarded them where my shirt was
left from before. He lied his back down on the mattress and waited for
me to get back on him. "So why you've never frenched?" I questioned
while slipping off my boxers while he looked at the wall beside him. I
stood at the foot of my bed just where he was moments ago. I did the
same and crawled over him jabbing fists into the mattress as I moved
then sat on his belly with my legs on either side of him. My cock was
flirting with his bits of chest hair that would often make an
appearance every time he wore a polo shirt with the buttons opened.
He turned his head to face me with a serious smile I think only he
could pull off then said, "I never bothered with mouths," just the
thought of him breathing heavily while screaming someone's name in
orgasm made me sweat and fully erect.
And speak of the devil.
I dipped in and kissed his cheek then his beautiful cheekbones forming
shadows on his face, then his neck. His hands were on my ribs and
rubbing me all over my back then moved further down into my cleft. I
sucked too hard and broke a blood vessel by his collarbone. His left
hand moved down my thigh and squeezed it.
My hand took his, pulling it to my mouth, pointed out his middle finger
and slowly injected it into my mouth. My tongue wrapped around it then
pulled it further back in my mouth, surprised I hadn't gagged. He
smiled and his eyes lit up, taking in that this moment that he never
thought would happen had finally arrived. I released his hand then he
pulled me on my back, bringing himself on top. He grinded his erection
into mine creating a burning sensation and producing some sort of drug,
like soma, and making me want him even more badly than ever before.
He pulled himself off the bed and I almost thought he was just going to
leave me here until he came back, with a bow-tie. Ironically, it was
one that he wore to church. The bow-tie was black with white polka dots
speckled all over it. He brought my wrists together then bound them
with the wavy piece of fabric. He tucked my bow-tied wrists behind my
head then sauntered to where his pants were left and pulled his belt
out of the loops. I predicted what was going to happen.
He stood by my feet and wringed the belt around his hand. With a loud
crack he slapped the end with the buckle on my thigh turning it red
then white then a green color. I shut my eyes tightly to prevent the
tears from running down my face and ruining my mascara. He whipped me
again. I looked around the room to focus on something. A box of Captain
Crunch by the chair, the Harry Potter DVD with a uni brow scribbled on
Daniel's forehead, and a damn lamp I bought from Ikea a few days ago.
Another few 100 whips or so, and he stopped. Spots on my belly, legs,
and hips changed into different colors from the rest of my body. It
totally turned me on.
"Nick, could you put the belt down and c'mere?" His face was serious.
He hasn't shown a smile since we'd undressed and he threw the belt by
the box of Captain Crunch. Before stepping fully onto the bed, he put
one knee between my legs making a space between them. He sat on the bed
with his legs bent beneath him and propped my legs up, bending them. He
lowered his head down and licked the spot on my belly that was whipped,
which was right above my cock. He trailed kisses down to the tip then
stopped. His eyes looked up at me and I looked down at him, wanting to
reach out and touch his face, but afraid that the lightest touch will
send chilling shivers down my spine. He looked back down at my cock and
dipped it into his mouth. The way you'd dunk a donut into a cup of
coffee or a Yan Yan bread stick into the strawberry cream frosting.
I felt a little hungry thinking about this but then Nick licked the
back of my cock and kissed a little too harshly on my balls where
Bobbeh had last grabbed too hard. I jolted back a bit after the
contact. He got back up with the look of fear flirting with the ocean
blue in his eyes. He thought he hurt me.
"It was from Bob. I feel so sore. It hurts so much."
He rubbed my calve and said, "Then lemme message it for you," and at
this he moved his hand onto my cock and back into my balls, his fingers
ghosting over them then lightly touching, making his warmth cool down
the pain. It felt so good. "Will you untie me now?"
"Not yet. You've been a bad boy making a naked guy wait in this room
all by himself. That's not the worst part. You think I'll never pay you
back for when you ruined my magazines, used my keyboard as a
wastebasket, and cut holes in the crotch of my pants? You were so wrong
about that Mr. Kapranos. Mr. Everyone-Loves-A-Lick-Of-My-Cock. It's my
turn to torture you." He turned me over onto my stomach and walked off
to his desk. He pulled open his drawer, rummaged through it and pulled
out a tube with a square shaped package. I felt the springs jump up and
down as he leaped back onto the bed and was opening the package. He
thrust it onto the floor and I was able to read the label, Lifestyle
Condoms. Then a cool liquid was applied in my crack and around the
edges of my skinny ass. It sent shivers up my spine but a fiery feeling
to my cock, understanding the bum fuck was about to begin.
It felt like a swift kick in my rear when he plunged his length into
me. My heart was beating fast as I heard him pant through every
movement. I tried to refrain myself from screaming his name but at the
rate he was going, I was bound to. His hand smacked my ass after an
even greater speed was developing, his other hand was grasping tightly
at my pelvis. The springs of the mattress was jumping as much as we
were, the intensity of fucking emptied the tightness of my throat and I
screamed without thinking:
"Ah. Nick. Gwhh. Lamp!" I heard him make a sound similar to laughter
and smacked my ass one more time increasing the speed, accomplishing
the impossible. I felt beads of sweat flinging off his fringe into my
back. He made little noises with each thrust sounding like a noise you
make when you are moving a heavy object, a sort of grunting sound but
with Michael Jackson's vocals. His hand on my hip moved south to my
cock and pulled at it while trying to get a firm grip. I dug my mouth
into the sheets and pushed my hips further up allowing him to go deeper
into me and his fingers to pump my cock properly. His fingers went
around so perfectly like every vein in my body. He pumped my fist-ed
cock as vigorously as his humps as I moved my body along with him
coming close to orgasm.
As an amateur fisherman hooks the bait onto the fishing pole then
throws it into the water moving it frantically until he hits the spot
were all the little fishies were, that's what happened to me at the
moment. He hit the right spot, sending me spitting out every word in my
mind: FUCK YES! OH DEAR LORD! NICK IS...i panted...NICK IS THE KING OF
ALL SHAGS! Along with the shouts that came out of me, I came in another
area. A million little pieces of me were on his hands and my recently
washed bedsheets. He was the energizer bunny riding a dragon on the
chinese New Year. He kept going and going and removed his hand from my
cock then smacked his lips making me assume he licked it all away from
his digits. He slowed the pace and moved the once cum covered hand onto
my nipple and squeezed, feeling all sorts of wonderfully bad pain all
over my body. He moaned my name "Your sex Alex!"
I didn't know if he meant you're or your but i let that stay behind the
filter and let the fact that Nick was the fucking best shag swarm
around me. He came all over my back, some spilling out of my hole. He
fell over beside me and I wrapped one arm over his chest and pulled him
closer. The soma fainted as we did from the sexual acts but our desires
were still round and ripening on the vine still growing in this newborn
garden.
"So I'm the king of all shags?" He turned his head into mine having our noses touch at the very tips.
"You're the best I've ever had." I looked down again, seeing my legs
were sticking to the bedsheets like all the juice melted from the
heated rays od the sun off a creamsicle. I bent one of my legs to bring
closer to my hand and scooped off a bit of cum on my index finger then
spread it across my lips like lip gloss. Nick moved his head closer and
licked off the sugary bits, ending in a tight kiss, then backed his
head out again.
"so, Nick, what did you mean by 'your sex Alex'?" He looked around as
if the clues were written down for him somewhere and was trying to
remember where he misplaced it.
"Your sex Alex, was better than listening to it."
Our thoughts glided in silence and the birds chirping was growing in
the background as the sun slowly awoke along with most of the college
campus. I looked at Nick, laced my fingers with his and cleared my
throat.
"Have you ever seen a man die?"
"I just did, didn't I?"
That was by far the most perfect thing he's ever said to me. I wrapped
a leg around his and squeezed him in feeling if I'd loosen my grip he'd
fall into the freezing waters of the Atlantic and drift away from
me. He tucked his head under my chin and I
heard a sniffle. "Nick? Nick are you... crying?"
"I'm sorry, I just never thought I'd do this. I have something to tell you, and I've been meaning to tell you for a while."
Was it true what Bobbeh told me? Did he love me? And what was Bobbeh
doing now? Thinking about what Nick and I could possibly be doing.
Instead he finds a slinky neck office lamp on his desk. Chrome with a
little chain of beads used to tug on to turn off and on. He wanks over
it.
"Nick if it's something that's not about lamps, I don't wanna hear it."
"What? No Alex, It's about something else. I don't know how to tell you this but I'll try."
Here it comes the reason why Valentine's Day was made and why it should be banished.
"I've been meaning for my parents to visit since the school year
started and now they're coming this weekend so I need you to change
your sheets and to clean the pubic hair off my keyboard. It might also
be a good idea to hide that lamp."
My eyes were shut the whole time but after hearing this I poked one
open then the other and loosened my shoulders. I slept for the first
time that night without any disturbances. The sunlight came tumbling on
my feet and moved further up turning my gray skin into gold. The first
sight of the morning was beautifully naked Nick. His exhales were like
little whistles being blown and his eyes were moved under his lids, he
must be dreaming.
"Nick, my sweet king. I hope you are dreaming about me as I have
dreamed of you every night. You're so beautiful. Lets fade together.
When your parents come I'll kneel before them and kiss their feet to
thank them for such a pulchritudinous gift they brought into this
world. I love you."