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i got a lot of things off my chest tonight. a lot.
i love her so much. and i think she might have actually seen it tonight.
i need to express myself better ... i really need to work on that ... i also need to anchor myself ... i need to be convicted about things and not so apathetic.
i need to cut out the pointless bitching .. i need to stand up and do something for myself.
and i think in a weird sort of a way i stood up and did something tonight that i've been putting off.
her honesty was brutal yet brilliant. brilliant in the bright shiny way. not the other way.
i'm going to try for me, for her , for everyone that my life affects. cause in a sense my life is not MY life. it's a part of everyone's life that i interact with on a daily basis.
i've lost touch and focus ... i've become weak and lazy.
no more. it ends 2 hours ago.
much love,
alex
i love her so much. and i think she might have actually seen it tonight.
i need to express myself better ... i really need to work on that ... i also need to anchor myself ... i need to be convicted about things and not so apathetic.
i need to cut out the pointless bitching .. i need to stand up and do something for myself.
and i think in a weird sort of a way i stood up and did something tonight that i've been putting off.
her honesty was brutal yet brilliant. brilliant in the bright shiny way. not the other way.
i'm going to try for me, for her , for everyone that my life affects. cause in a sense my life is not MY life. it's a part of everyone's life that i interact with on a daily basis.
i've lost touch and focus ... i've become weak and lazy.
no more. it ends 2 hours ago.
much love,
alex