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I started school today. and at first i wasn't excited in the least, but as the day went on I remembered how I love to interact with people in a learning environment. I feel like im truly accomplishing something, and not just by myself. i felt riveted.
Though this is just going to push me further away from the people i'm already losing contact with. cameron is moving away (but i really dont want him too!), felix pretty much has ditched me, vince is gone, and there's really no one else. at least i still have mikki!
tomorrow, for real this time, im going to get my license, and im sooo relieved.
but i also have to start work again, which im dreading. grounds is not how i thought it would be, and these people are just so rude, trying so hard to hold you back and make you quit so they can keep things the same. change is good! i swear!
im still plagued by dreams of joe. i wish i had the guts to call him, i just want to say some things to him...i need some closure. but i know he thinks im selfish and a whore and a liar and will never truly listen to what i have to say. but still every night he's in my dreams, and we have these great conversations, and then i feel comforted and satisfied. someday, hopefully soon, i'll work up the guts to talk to him. for now, i have music!
Though this is just going to push me further away from the people i'm already losing contact with. cameron is moving away (but i really dont want him too!), felix pretty much has ditched me, vince is gone, and there's really no one else. at least i still have mikki!
tomorrow, for real this time, im going to get my license, and im sooo relieved.
but i also have to start work again, which im dreading. grounds is not how i thought it would be, and these people are just so rude, trying so hard to hold you back and make you quit so they can keep things the same. change is good! i swear!
im still plagued by dreams of joe. i wish i had the guts to call him, i just want to say some things to him...i need some closure. but i know he thinks im selfish and a whore and a liar and will never truly listen to what i have to say. but still every night he's in my dreams, and we have these great conversations, and then i feel comforted and satisfied. someday, hopefully soon, i'll work up the guts to talk to him. for now, i have music!