My shell cracks again...

[alexiscotius]

I'm personally amazed at how close Siobhan got to me today. I keep a shield up at all times. Its is the hardest to see. I have woven without meaning to several layers into it. It protects me so well. I barely have to keep it up but Siobhan put a chink in my wonderful armor today. I put up a friendly personality that is slightly flamboyant. I am bi with straight leanings. I let people discover what they wish about me and allow themselves to be decieved and laugh when they discover their mistake. I am a tease. I trickster and imp. I have morales, clauses, hopes, dreams, and a wish. My shell grows thicker everytime I choose to love. I dislike loving but.. my wish.. I choose to love because its all I know how. I love because I know no right and no wrong in love. I just love. I choose who I love but sometimes, I don't know if it is enough. I have no it is enough. I don't love traditionally... I love. Maybe I am just enamored with the idea of love being so close to the divine. I notice that I do rebuff people that try to get close. I don't want them close because I hate reaching out and getting burned... I try my best not to do it to anyone but I very rarely reach out. That is also why I very rarely date. When I date, I reach out. I crave affection. To curl up with someone and just relax, to touch with no ulterior motive, to nibble, to carress. You know I am close to you when I do any of this. Its kinda amazing the person that is hidden within the pillar of strength that others come to. To be able to see him, well, that is a challenge all by itself...

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I kinda find it amusing I show too much balance in my life.

Your Ultimate Purity Score Is... CategoryYour Score Average Self-Lovin'51.7%
Explored the pleasures of the flesh 64.8%Shamelessness78.6%
Has yet to see self in mirror 78.9% Sex Drive 63.2%
A fool for love, but not always77.2%Straightness7.1%
Knows the other body type like a map 44% Gayness 23.2%
Makes Dr. Frank-n-Furter look tame 83.7%

Fucking Sick86.7%
Refreshingly normal 89.9%

You are 52.94% pure
Average Score: 72.4%

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