I'm bitching. Fuck off.
Alright, got most of the purge done when it came to the virus. It was a combination of viruses with a worm going around the same files and when the file was destroyed another virus came into play called Klone. What Klone does is exactly what its name tells you it does. EEWWWW! Pair them together you have kaos, plain and simple. I got hit with massive viruses within the first hour that my virus defender bailed me out of. Taken me couple days to hand do all this work. Yes, hand do. Wastes time, not money. Its long and complicated but its evil. But he's a little to think on when it comes to math.
12 viruses in 1 hour.
144 in 12.
288 in 24.
Without my virus defender, I would've had to reformat my computer and lost shitloads. Get yourself a firewall and a virus blocker to prevent this from happening. I got lucky that I had enough know how to root around in the sludgey parts of my computer to save me money before I had to use what little money I had to get a repairman or my dad to fix this for me. Either that or spending another week or so, restoring the system to how I like it at the present moment with the data.
Save your digi-life, back it up. Wall it off. Protect it with sword and shield.
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Erika found out that my morales are quite loose. The reason why they are is not alot of people live up to my expectations or do the smart thing. I've been hurt alot so my morales are my excuse to accept some of the things in the world and make it seem right to me. Yes, I know, its horrible. But in reality, I'm a pretty good guy but I let whoever I am with make the calls when it comes to what's right or not and whether or not I'll let it. It's jello morales basically. Wierd but it works for me, I lose enough sleep at night. I haven't truly cheated on anyone, I was tempted as anyone will admit, but something always came up. Which was a good thing in its own reasons.
Shelby asked me if I regretted the day I spent with her, my answer was simple, "I'd do alot more" I don't regret it. That time, that day I had with her was more than enough for me. She set the limits, we both followed the rules, but I enforced them. My self-control was put in check. I nearly lost it too. It took strength to make sure I didn't breach any of the rules.
I sat there thinking about her next question, Do you want me to come back to Texas/ break up with Mike/ be with you? My answer was I want you to be happy. Whether it was with Mike, the chauvinistic quick tempered pig or not. What I didn't admit was : there was the little voice that wanted her to come back. It was kindof greed talking and a little of arrogance, that I could do so much better at him at being with her. I pushed it aside for the right answer, the one the I knew was right. I want her to be happy, I want her to make her own choices instead of me being on the side of her family instead of with Shelby. If she stays with the git that's forcing them to live with his mother, oh well. I just don't like it. He's unmotivated carless 25 yr old that lives with a mother that is drunk more often than not that spouts off at the mouth before realizing hey, I just insulted my girlfriend. What's worse is he's a bad drunk and smokes while she's allergic to it. Things you do for love eh?
I won't say this is all one-sided though, she's bossy as well. She's admitted it. She's insulted him back. She'll go behind his back if what he says isn't what she agrees to (whether he knows or not is another matter). So what does that mean if I got into a relationship with her?
Yes, I know she is a wonderful person but I am being a pessimist at the moment by looking at the faults of people. I'm being pissy.
A relationship is based on trust before it is based on checks and balances. Give take Give take. But reality is the necissity of invention. Things don't work the idealist way, yet, in a way.... I am an old romantic in ways. In each mindset, you don't realize that you have to take the good and the bad in the world. Regrettably, people keep the honey on hand to grease their throats so they can swallow that rough jagged pill. Some people think a proper amount of sugar coating with solve a problem and allow them to swallow it, in reality, it makes a larger pill that is harder to swallow that may have a sickly sweet taste to it. Irony at its best.
I may post my geometric theory on relationships that are stable eventually. Its complicated but I don't expect people to get it. Bye.
12 viruses in 1 hour.
144 in 12.
288 in 24.
Without my virus defender, I would've had to reformat my computer and lost shitloads. Get yourself a firewall and a virus blocker to prevent this from happening. I got lucky that I had enough know how to root around in the sludgey parts of my computer to save me money before I had to use what little money I had to get a repairman or my dad to fix this for me. Either that or spending another week or so, restoring the system to how I like it at the present moment with the data.
Save your digi-life, back it up. Wall it off. Protect it with sword and shield.
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Erika found out that my morales are quite loose. The reason why they are is not alot of people live up to my expectations or do the smart thing. I've been hurt alot so my morales are my excuse to accept some of the things in the world and make it seem right to me. Yes, I know, its horrible. But in reality, I'm a pretty good guy but I let whoever I am with make the calls when it comes to what's right or not and whether or not I'll let it. It's jello morales basically. Wierd but it works for me, I lose enough sleep at night. I haven't truly cheated on anyone, I was tempted as anyone will admit, but something always came up. Which was a good thing in its own reasons.
Shelby asked me if I regretted the day I spent with her, my answer was simple, "I'd do alot more" I don't regret it. That time, that day I had with her was more than enough for me. She set the limits, we both followed the rules, but I enforced them. My self-control was put in check. I nearly lost it too. It took strength to make sure I didn't breach any of the rules.
I sat there thinking about her next question, Do you want me to come back to Texas/ break up with Mike/ be with you? My answer was I want you to be happy. Whether it was with Mike, the chauvinistic quick tempered pig or not. What I didn't admit was : there was the little voice that wanted her to come back. It was kindof greed talking and a little of arrogance, that I could do so much better at him at being with her. I pushed it aside for the right answer, the one the I knew was right. I want her to be happy, I want her to make her own choices instead of me being on the side of her family instead of with Shelby. If she stays with the git that's forcing them to live with his mother, oh well. I just don't like it. He's unmotivated carless 25 yr old that lives with a mother that is drunk more often than not that spouts off at the mouth before realizing hey, I just insulted my girlfriend. What's worse is he's a bad drunk and smokes while she's allergic to it. Things you do for love eh?
I won't say this is all one-sided though, she's bossy as well. She's admitted it. She's insulted him back. She'll go behind his back if what he says isn't what she agrees to (whether he knows or not is another matter). So what does that mean if I got into a relationship with her?
Yes, I know she is a wonderful person but I am being a pessimist at the moment by looking at the faults of people. I'm being pissy.
A relationship is based on trust before it is based on checks and balances. Give take Give take. But reality is the necissity of invention. Things don't work the idealist way, yet, in a way.... I am an old romantic in ways. In each mindset, you don't realize that you have to take the good and the bad in the world. Regrettably, people keep the honey on hand to grease their throats so they can swallow that rough jagged pill. Some people think a proper amount of sugar coating with solve a problem and allow them to swallow it, in reality, it makes a larger pill that is harder to swallow that may have a sickly sweet taste to it. Irony at its best.
I may post my geometric theory on relationships that are stable eventually. Its complicated but I don't expect people to get it. Bye.